crushed-siobhan

2009-11-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today I saw Mr J when I was on my way to work.
I think he's wife is working near my place that's why he's there to send her off I think.
However, I was late this morning! Was still woalking towards office when it's already 915, but he's even later cos his office is in another area!!!
omg. wad a naughty worker.
His hair problem seems to be getting worse.
He's really balding very fast...

Realized today's friday the 13th.
1st thing in the morning when i reach the office lobby, i found that i couldn't scan and get pass the gantry.
had to register myself with reception before the security guard lets me in.
but i suspect they knew of the problem because the guard is standing right beside the gantry this morning.
the receptionist told me to go to my security center to find out the reason behind the fault.
when i reached there, there were many others who also went there to complain about the problem.
they said they were doing some testing.
luckily the problem was fixed before lunch, so by the time i came back from lunch, i wa able to pass thru the gantry already.

went suntec for lunch cos we wanted to see how tight the security is.
apparently, they cordoned off some walkway area and the whole of suntec convention center is blocked.
but it's still ok.
we're behaving like tourists trying to find out what is happening right at suntec :)
so funny...

2009-11-07T21:51:00.002+08:00

On Wednesday when I was celebrating Qianhui's birthday I found out why I didn't get into Hoiman's company when I went there for an interview.
The boss had actually did a search of my name Google and he saw my blog - My Space where I scolded my ex-boss.
It finally got to me that the internet is a scary thing.
Unless you rename yourself, you have no privacy at all!
I finally understand how a person can be sacked because he was using facebook during office hours.
Upon hearing the reason of rejection, I immediately went to delete my entries on My Space and copied everything here.
I even went to lock up my facebook so that people who are not my friends can't see my activities.
If my current/future boss saw my clubbing photos, I'm dead meat...

qianhui's bdae

2009-11-05T00:33:00.001+08:00

today's qianhui's bdae celebration. had steamboat at bugis
house of steamboat @ tan quee lan st
not to crowded but the soup not thick enough.
a bit on the ex side. go try it!

Grandma's cataract

2009-11-01T20:45:00.003+08:00

Grandma is going to have her cataract operation this Monday soon.
It's a common thing for old people but I still can't help feeling a little worried.
I even went up to stay for the night yesterday. She seems fine but apparently she still can't really see with her left eye.
I think for now on I'll go more to grandma's house to visit her.
Also to let grandpa know that I'm there to visit him.
He's a bit senile now and he can't remember our face anymore. haha.

Great Eastern Life Run

2009-11-01T20:40:00.003+08:00

Today I woke up at 630am to go for the run.
The location is at Padang, which is exactly in front of my office!
Oh my goodness. The route is very flat so I find it super easy to run.
I even ran on the F1 race track! I felt like a F1 racer when I was on it.
Next event will be standard chartered run where I'll be the volunteer.
It'f the first time that I'm going there as a volunteer, not a participant.
I wonder what I'll be doing.
Hope that it will be fun... and I really wonder if I must wake up super early cos the flagoff for the 42.195km run is at 430am, if I remember correctly...

Amazing Race

2009-10-24T16:55:00.002+08:00

Tmr will be the "amazing race" competition I will have with Qianhui, her bf, and her sister.
I remembered the prize money was huge but I can't remember exactly how much.
Hopefully I can win some money for me to save up!!!
lol.

And my dad's been gambling on football. Lost $600 and he borrowed from either my sis or I.
Haiz. He got scolded by mother. We're not exactly poor, but just nice you know. And yet he's spending money on gambling!!!
Can't believe it. Instead of making money, he's spending money UNNECESSARILY.

Hope everything will be well again.
Like cute footballers (Kaka!!!) but don't like gamblers.

2009-10-24T16:34:00.004+08:00

2nd day at work at a big corporation.
Although it's humongous (we even need to have 5-digit extension no.), it's kinda very backwards.
Everything is so manual. We must key in every little single details that we have onto the spreadsheet for reporting.
Even tho the last corporation I used to work in isn't that fantastic, but the systems and such are much more modern, with the IT dept having to help make the downloading of the data much more simplistic.
But then it's kind of a good news because the more manual the work is going to get, the more they'll have to hire to complete the task.
So that means it's kinda encouraging for us since it'll help boost employment rate and assist the economy to pick up in such bad times.
Now I'm still in the learning mode so I still have a lot to learn.
Ganbatte!

My little shop

2009-10-20T15:08:00.004+08:00

I've always been dreaming of having my shop.
It's those kind of shophouses where you have 2 storeys.
The 1st level will be a cafe where I'll serve up some pastries,
premium coffee and tea, cookies, muffins...
Yanru will be my pattisseur who shall come up with all the delicious cakes and such.
I will also recommend every-week lunch specials.

The 2nd level will be my little boutique where I'll sell
clothes belonging to my own label.
Ladies will be shopping on the 2nd level while gentlemen will have their coffee on the 1st level.
Isn't that great???
If the ladies need a little alteration to their clothes, I can have them sit at the cafe to enjoy their afternoon tea while I alter them upstairs!

But Yanru says that I can only have such shops in other countries. Definitely not Singapore.
They suggested having a gaming centre on the 2nd level instead.
Cos gaming centre earns quite a lot.
Besides I can have the cafe downstairs to provide drinks and food for the gamers if they're hungry or thirsty.
I can also create a small comics section in the cafe, so that studious type can relax in their corner.
Yanru also suggested having a pets' cafe where pet owners can bring in their favorite pets to my cafe.
Of course, there will be a section barricaded off so that I can separate pets' corners and normal corners so that customers who do not have pets and chill out too.

Haiz. So many options and so little capital.
But the more I dream about it, the more realistic it became...
When do you think I can have a shop of my own???
I need shareholders, or else I will not be able to save up for my shop on my own...
A rule of thumb is to have savings which can lasts for at least 6 months of no business.
Workers, rental, utilities...
It's a whole load of money.
I sincerely wish that my wish could come true in the very-near future.

Stubborn Mr J

2009-05-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

Today Mr J was being unreasonable again.
I left a stack of notes on his table, telling him to go thru it to check if i've missed out anything
he was not talking to the phone or whatever, but a few minutes later, he came back to question me saying "you can't just leave a stack of things on my desk without telling me what i'm suppose to do with it"
of course i argues with him!!! i told him i did
His tone really sucks. he sound as if im the one who's being unreasonable, and that i owe him an explanation like that
the thing is... we've agreed the previous month that we're going to adopt this procedure whereby i'll fill in all the particulars which i have the data, and i'll go thru it with him to make sure we didn't miss out anything before we ask hk to check if those missing entries beling to them. if they do beling to hk, the data should be entered from their side, not by us. this is also to prevent double counting
i bet he totally forgot about it, and i have to be forced to write him an officeal email to remind him of what we've agreed upon the last time/
qianhui reminded me to put a post-it on the things which im suppose to give him the next time to avoid confusion. asshole
he also always do these kind of things to me wad... just leave a pile of paper on my desk and wait for me to approach him before he explained what he wants me to do with it.
my other colleague says "that's life. he's the boss so he can do it but you can't" bleah...
then comes evening time. i went to operations to get info on op losses. there was this entry whereby a mistake was made and a full reversal was also made to correct the entry but the exchange rate was diff (due to transactions made at different times) hence the discrepancy by a small amt
the head of ops had to call mr j to scold him for wating her time and my time bcos a FULL reversal shouldn't have anything more to say. there is nothing to report since the error is covered.
but mr j insists that i should check all entries with ops to understand the full picture. he kep focussing on the general picture but the head wants him to focus on the specific case itself
he simply REFUSES to listen. in the end, the head won! and she also scolded mr j for being an idiot, of course only in front of me lah!
she is extremely pissed off with mr j for not understanding simple matters and instruction
i was right beside her and i really feel like killing mr j as i listen to their conversation
i just laugh "dun like that lah... im working for an idiot leh." and then the head simply stare at me with an "i give up" face. lol
when i finally went back to my seat, mr j was like "she's a hard nut to crack right?"
i was thinking "you're the one who made all these things happen. if not for you, she wouldn't be so agitated and feeling so horrible. how dare you still blame others for baring their fangs at you!
i really want to sack mr j!!! but before that, i have to make sure my next rice bowl is stable. i really hope my next job will be a better one, with less shitty ppl to deal with, esp someone like mr j.

Shitty Boss... Mr J

2009-05-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

My new boss, whom I call Mr J, is damn shitty... I really dunno wad he's thinking in his mind.

1) He's always so busy... busy in gossips about who's leaving the company this month, how many more leaving next month. But when it comes to work, he doesn't seem to know anything, and he couldn't care less.

2) HK side suppose to inform Mr J of any losses, big or small, but they didn't.
I asked, trying to be sacarstic, "Are you sure they still know you're with the bank?"
Mr J: No lah. They should know
Me: Are you sure you don't need to send them a reminder to tell them that you still exist?
Mr J: We just monitor first. If next month they still dun report to me, then I'll have to go to CEO

3) There was this system which is exclusive to my dept. When my HK partner reminded me to fill in this tab, I confronted Mr J to ask him why he din teach me about this
Mr J: I dunno. I never use this tab before
Me: How come you never know about this thing?
Mr J: I really dunno. I'm very surprised how come a temp staff in HK knows more than me
and he still can laugh it off...

4) I was asking him about case A at his desk. When we discussed that we need more info from another dept, and that person happen to sit beside him so we just move over. He began talking about case B which is already closed. Since case B involves legal rights issue, the person doesn't really want to talk much about it. I thought Mr J has some other issues to discuss with that person, so I just let him continue, without knowing he's totally on the wrong note...

Mr J always confuses me, but necause it's internal discussion, I can still clarify things with him. But when we're having discussions with other people from another dept, he points his fingers at me
Mr J: I thought case B is what you're talking about?
Me: No, we're talking about case A
because I happen to have all the email correspondence on my hand serving as evidence, Mr J had no choice but to apologize in front of everyone, saying that he's confused about things.
If I hadn't had all the evidences with me, I might have been bullied by him!

5) Head Office wanted us to give them a report within 2 days. I talked to HK side and learnt that they can't give us the info within 2 days, and that this was not the usual way of doing things. I then approached Mr J for advice.
Mr J: I dun see a problem. There is no need for extension of deadline
Me: HK side say they can't produce the report within 2 days, and if this time we can give the and within 2 days, next time they may cut to 1.5 days, and then later to 1 day, which is impossible!
Mr J: Can one lah, can one. I know the head office people. They can one lah. tell HK side not to worry.
Me: But they have already explained they can't meet the deadline, and there defintely is the possibility that they may cut short the deadline in the future, isn't it?
and Mr J keeps ignoring my plea to ask for extension of deadline.
Me: Since you keep insisting that it can be done, then YOU go tell HK side that you say it can be done
Mr J: No lah. I don't want to let them feel like I'm ordering them to do things. Anyway, if anything goes wrong, HK side is answerable, not us. We dun need to worry.

FYI. Im talking about s=us belonging to the same team, differing by geographical locations...
then HK side called me, and i explained to him saying we have no say, any maybe he could approach APAC head to ask the head office for extension of deadline.
then afterwards, APAC head emailed everyone to let them know of the extension of deadline.
Mr J then came happily telling me: See! This should be the right way. the big boss should be the one talking.
i was like WTF!
Mr j is a mgr. who wouldn't listen to a mgr if he asks for deadline? Who wouldn't listen if your reasons are valid? Why is a mgr acting like a tortoise, avoiding responsibilities like that? I really wonder why and home come Mr J's a mgr
Then ok. since big boss asked for extension, everything is settled for the time being. I discussed this with Mr J, asking him what can be done to improve the situation. After discussion, mr J suggested a way to solve the problem
MeL ok. then you go suggest to HK side to ask them do this way going forward
mr J; it's ok lah. they're smart ppl. even without me telling them what to do, they'll know what to do lah...
HELLO!!! we're in the same team but why are you being so defensive?
Mr J: aiyoh. hk side ppl not good one. got a lot of problems
i was thinking: look at your own attitude towards work. how can anyone not be angry and uncooperate with you?

6) we wanted IT to do an enhancement with the recommendation of another dept, we went to contact HK IT to help us do the enhancement. But the right procedure is go through SG IT (as we're based in SG) and let SG IT to decide which country's IT to take on the enhancement. We shouldn't have approached HK IT directly. one of my friends from SG IT happen to know of the event and he called me to explain the correct procedure as to what is the right way to do things, then i realized we're wrong. So, once again, I approached mr j to ask him if he knew about the company policies and procedure
mr j: sorry leh. i really dunno
as i knew what his ans would be, i just jokingly tell him
my friend in SG IT tell me to put 'As instructed by my boss, this is what we need to do' in all my emails
mr j: no lah. dun need lah
It's as if he's so scared that I mention his name cos if anything goes wrong, he'll be answerable to the things i say/do
tortoise. idiot

7) Today the ex deputy CFO sent me a personal email saying she's no longer working with our entity and has moved on to another entity of the bank
i guess she's fed up cos we kept her in the CC loop so she emiled me in private, asking me to be the messenger to remind others
I was totally surprised because no one informed anyone of us, and i have to apologise to her, and thank her for reminding
as usual, i asked mr J if he knew the deputy CFO is moving to another entity of the bank
mrJ: ya, i know
i totally blasted like volcano erupt.
me: if you knew, why din you remind the rest?
and then mr j just kept quiet. i also dun care about him and proceed to remind all the other ppl that the deputy CFO has left our enity. I even called to tell HK about this matter
den hk ask me: both of you din talk to each other? you'r not sitting beside each other?
me: yea, im sitting beside him, but i dunno why he behaves like that
i totally dun care about him and stab him. lol
then mr j caught me during tea break. i hinted to him how displeased i was about him retaining info.
then he says: you're too young to know how bad hk ppl are
me: but these kind of things is just a friendly reminder. why would anyone think it in a negative way? do you know that the ex deputy CFO emailed me in private?
mr J: yes, i saw your email for the reminder. next time i share with you all the gossips i know
that is his way of improving the situation. wad an asshole
and all these happen within 1 mth. i really can't imagine if i were to work under him for years
I'll be super evil!!

2008-02-20T11:04:00.003+08:00

tomorrow's evaluation day.
2.4km must hit below 13:30!!!
i guess i have to aim for 2:10 for every round and 2:20 for the last 2 rounds.
it's quite difficult because ive never run such timings before
ah!!! i dunno how im going to do it man!!!
no confidence!
but i guess i'll try

yesterday my left shoulder is aching again.
we did statics for a very long time. haha.
but i guess it's still ok be. applied some medicinal rub and its feeling better already.

last sunday we went to eat chong qing steamboat with the 9haz.
it was very nice. haha
we went there to celebrate serena's birthday.
wenting even gave each of us a stalk of rose. for valentines
so cool.

im going for mahjong session with yanru this coming sunday.
its been a long time since i saw them. hehe.

2008-02-09T11:33:00.001+08:00

Not been feeling well for the past 3 days.
Fever, cough and flu.
I think I must be too tired. Cos I was actually rushing on a report on New Year's eve, which aggravates my sickness cos i was not able to have enough rest.

Being sick is really sucky. Not only do you lose energy in whatever things you do, you also can't concentrate well. I took quite a long time to finish up my report, but in the end, I still made it on time, and was able to rest for these 2 days.

Going out for lunch later with some of my friends.

Then, I'll be going to Gekling's hse and then to Grandma's hse, where I'll just wait for sch to reopens ba.
I still have an individual report for Strat Mgt, which I feel like get-it-over-and-done-with asap.

Equity test is coming up on 1st March, which is like 2 weeks later, and I have not read up on anything yet.
Sianz.

Sch is so sucky...

2008-02-06T19:58:00.001+08:00

it's chinese new year eve! haha.
but i still dont have the cny mood. cos i still have many projects on hand!!!
right now i have 3, including FYP.
1st stage of the equity proj is soon to be due. i think it's next week if im not wrong.
our tutor planned for us already.
every stage must be completed by a certain deadline. dammit. why cant he just let us plan by ourselves? so we're not so tight on our deadline currently...

then strat mgt round 1's deadline is on Monday. i wonder how we're suppose to meet, prob online i guess
then FYP. im suppose to do some write-ups abt companies and the deadline is 2 days after CNY, which is Sunday.
AHHHHHHHHHH!!! im going complete bonkers!

today i just spent the whole day doing my write-up for the FYP. omg. i must be more efficient.
Rarhhhh!

2008-01-26T23:17:00.001+08:00

today's another sucky training.
lagged behind the team during the run, as usual.
haiz. very demoralizing cos i was doing quite well last sem
been wanting to keep up my level of fitness but many things occur

first was exams. i din go for self-trains for the entire period
next, standard chartered run. after the run, my leg is in serious "recovering mode"
then, shoulder joint inflammation. probably due to pool rowing cos ah hee wants us to pull as fast as we can. of course, the water resistance in the swimming pool is greater. i just anyhow wack. then gym session also try to push for heavier weights. that's why y joints finally gave way.
now, it's my stomach. been laosai-ing for many days already. always felt like vomitting during the runs
but i think it's getting better, though im not sure what causes it.
the symptoms started ever since tuesday, after i had lunch at cafe cartel with my fren.
How do you check if you're having food poisoning?? LS? Vomit?

then got scolded by snr during the run...
she said it's not fair for the others when they are fighting so hard for a seat in the boat while im not
which i think its true..
thou i know it's the truth, it's still hurting me
i want to be with them! but sometimes my mental strength is still not there to translate my desire to actions
maybe my mental strength is not strong enough. its always the saying. "Mind over body"
but i wonder how true it is.
maybe its true for ppl who are already up there. wads left is their mental strength which differentiates the champion and the runner-up
but for me, who is not even up there, training up my body is definitely the first criterion which i must achieve before i can call in my mental to support my actions

anyway, i'll first start with training up my body.
thurs ran outside sch for 2 rounds.
i think the pace is too fast for the current me, and my fitness level is not there yet
after the slope, my right leg muscles is very suan -- to the extent that it somehows feel painful to run
very sorry to ashley who accompanied me during that run.
was slowing down her by a lot!!

gotta be with the team!
gotta set a good role model for juniors!
gotta fight for a seat in the PM boat!

2008-01-18T16:22:00.001+08:00

here's another update. i am certified with joint inflammation on my left shoulder
i think its cos of yesterday's weight training
my grp did all the stations that need to use hands.
bicep, clean & jerk, upright row...
den i so stupid
cos i dun wan to queue to do the weights, i went to do 15kg of biceps
haha. i think that's wad aggrevate my shoulder's condition.
was damn hurting when i went to slp yesterday night
went to see sch doc after class today
the doc is damn scared of me
haha. keep reminding me, "no more db activities and weights training for 1 week"
i just keep nodding my head, as usual. ahha

Wednesday

i went to donate blood for the first time
the needle for bld transfusion is damn big la
looks scary when the nurse insert it into my arm
but it's ok cos got anesthesia
and my blood flows damn fast can!
those who were suppose to be infront of me were not done yet when im already done with my pack
the nurse quite cute
she took my blood pack and place it near my hand, saying, "say goodbye to your blood"
it feels funny and weird. cos the blood pack is real warm.

2008-01-08T23:06:00.001+08:00

Today's the 1st day of training after sch starts.
not say today sucks totally, but a bit 力不从心.
think its cause of my mensus. super tired.
ran peaceful road 2 rounds.
i started to lag behind even when its only the beginning part
it's so "oh my god"
had stitch on my right abdomen
somewhere just below my lungs
super pain, even when i breathe
even more pain when i go down slope
it's not the 1st time im getting this kind of pain
i think it's because i didn't control when i go down slope
i just let my body run on its own
shake too much of my body... maybe
that's why it's so pain

super sucky. then at the end of the training
tay chuan made us form into groups to think of goals that we want to achieve
one of the groups said, "to train until we can run as a team"
i was thinking... they're referring to me man!
oh my goodness. gotta do something about it

actually, i was improving
just before exam period
i was surprisingly able to catch up with the team, sometimes
haha
but during exam period... as usual.. i slack off and fitness drops
then stand chart marathon
leg pain. cannot join the rest for runs during trainings
fitness drops even more... it's like 1.5 to 2 mths never run
only started running during the training camp

the feeling of ur fitness level dropping sucks totally ok!!!
after 1 yr and when ur glad ur finally keeping up with the rest, and then 1 exam period and BOOM!
ur back to where u r when u first came in
Argggggg

tried going for ost once, at bedok reservior
though i know my leg is still not tired, but my lungs are not catching up with my pace
just like last time, always can't seem to breathe properly. stamina...
gotta run more...
faster, quicker.

2007-12-26T10:16:00.001+08:00

ok. today's one day after christmas. need to go shopping for a while.
gonna shop for a sleeping bag. cos there's no one whom i can borrow from.
the training camp's coming real soon!
3D2N somemore. dammit. i think im going to die during the camp
hahaha. being exaggerating here, budden who knows?!

been wanting to go for a run these few days
but never seem to have the motivation to go. anyway, the weather's been really hectic
one moment it can be sunshine all day, the next it will be cloudy and big rain
dunno wad's going on man.
think armageddon is really coming.

anyway, merry christmas!!!

our dear wensi is now in canada le. she's going for exchange at Queen's university for the whole of next sem
nice. so good for her
can see snow and be there for such a long time.
hope she'll be able to make good frens over there, cos from her account, it seems like ppl over there are not so friendly
hopefully she can also find a caucasion beau over there!
well, a foreign country is always a good place to fall in love. plus snow somemore. :)

2007-12-03T10:33:00.000+08:00

the pain in my knee and ankle is killing me now!
yesterday just went through a tough and excrutiating run... Standard Chartered full marathon of 42.195km
the course had a loop around marina bay, then we head down to ECP and back to Padang.
it was a damn cold day. actually it has been cold for these few days
and im down with flu for the past few days too.
just hours b4 the run, i was still awake cos of the flu.
got up and took cold relief. den i went for the run.
was not really feeling well. felt like throwing up initially, esp in the early morning when the air is super cold.
poor xiaoting was slowed down by me

in the end, i pass my chip to qianyi and she ran for me, while i con't to walk for the rest of the journey
was really hoping i can recover to run
but my knee was just not working out for me
tried to ask for spray and some rubs along the way
but bcos i was so far behind, they had ran out of it. dammit
i had to endure the pain all the way until the last 14km then they provide the spray!

at the last 10km, i caught up with gekling. she said that she felt giddy and her toe was bleeding.
the nurse told her her giddiness was because she had an early breakfast and didn't consume other food until then. but in the end, she was sent back to the medical camp cos her bleeding toe was in need of immediate treatment
after i saw her off, i con't walking. haha.
i walked until the last 4km when the officials said becos the road is opening up, they had no choice but to send us to somewhere near esplanade where we'll drop off the complete the race.
was really tired by then and i feel like falling aslp in the car. haha.
then finally reached esplanade. the getting down part is the worst!!!
couldn't even stand properly. omg.
but its only left 400m to go so i just bear with the pain and walk the last 400m to the finishing point.
it was a relief when i cross the line. dammit. it was such a long journey...

going back home was another problem. haha. cos i changed to my slippers and there was no support so the pain was getting worse
im literally crawling to the mrt station
then the exit of the tampines mrt station was made into a slope for ease of the handicap. but it was really painful for me
then getting up on the bus was another challenge.
the step was so high and it was so pain for me to climb up the steps.
hahaha. all the ppl were staring at me but i couldn't care less.
all i want is to get back home asap.

going to see the doc now to get some painkillers. after resting for 1 night, the pain is getting worse.
i cant even bend my knee!
hope i'll recover soon enough...

2007-11-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

I am a mugger! haha. yes. super mugger, for today only.
tmr's my 1st paper... Mind Over Stress
can u imagine me taking this paper when im so suffocated by the "exam" thingy?

tmr's the 15th alrdy. still have 17 days to go for Standard Chartered.
haha. im so dead. did not train at all
going to die on that day man...
scary. 42 click le.

been watching dramas too. just completed some korean dramas. haha
ur so right man, esther. its so my way of distress.

last sunday celebrated yanqi's bdae at clarke quay. went to fishermen's wharf. den some dessert stall
dis sat will be wensi's bdae party. so looking forward to a day of relaxation.
that crazy girl's gonna host 50 ppl in her hse!!! omg. im so gonna squeeze myself in a corner of her hse...

Happy Birthday to the November babies!

2007-11-04T23:05:00.000+08:00

Today marks the end of the River Regatta 2007.
It was fun after all, but a little scary because it seems as if all other teams are improving way too fast!
We're damn hot on our heels man!
kena pushed by them.
RP esp lor. Always coming in one of the top few spots. Scary sia!!!

It was kind of pressing for the guys too.
We got 2nd for our Men's Finals. RP was 1st and NUS was 2nd.
Today also got accidents. One of the guys, Zong Xuan got hurt on the hand. Blood spurts out somemore.
Disgusted. Never imagine one can get so seriously injured because of an accident.
Another guy's paddle just poke into his hands and then he got injured just like that.

Today I only rowed for Mix Race. It was damn bad. No communication in the boat at all.
The backpack didn't echo most of the commands from the coaxier, so the midpack and the front pack couldn't hear him, and thus couldn't react accurately to the coaxier's commands.
We started out like 3 seats behind ppl. But our overall race was a good set. We managed to come in side by side with the rest of the other boats.
Because we're at a disadvantage in the beginning, the coaxier had to ride the other boat's waves. In the end, we went too near the buoy and one of the guys actually lost his paddle as he crashed into the buoy. Was quite disastrous for the rest of the teammates because the buoy hit the 1st guy, then the next. Some managed to get their paddles back, so in the end we only have 1 guy who is not rowing.
Then the charging part was damn comical. Jiayi, junior, couldn't catch up to the pace at all. Thus, the guy behind her was slowed down by her. After the guy was me. I was following the rythm of the shouting, so obviously I was faster than the guy in front of me and Jiayi. Then I keep hitting the elbow of the guy sitting in front of me. Haha. After the race, he seem quite in pain, but it's really bo bian.
I'm already with the boat's pace. It's very hard for me to slow down to their pace. So sorry, buddy!
Haha. but overall, it was damn good. More stable than yesterday's race.

Then Small Aunt, Felicia Foo, came this morning to support me. She treated me to BK breakfast.
Haha. yeah. Only BK cos it is a Sunday morning, and we're in the CBD area, so of course only these fast food restaurants are opened so early in the morning.

Nice. How wonderful to have family supporters for the first time. :) and free food somemore. Blessed.

Then yesterday saw small uncle on the train while I was on my way home. He infomed me that I'm going to be an aunt again soon. My male and older cousin is going to have a baby, due next year March. March baby! i like! Cos i'm also a March baby. Hehex.
Just in time for my graduation.
Double happiness!!!

That's all for now. Goodnight!

2007-10-02T18:24:00.000+08:00

recess week is over. and my hectic schedule too.
3 things on monday:
bf214 presentation, bf214 quiz and hp204 personality quiz

presentation:
it was a great success. prof was amazed how simply we could explain the link between subprime crisis and carry trade. haha.
but he doesnt know how much effort we've put in
to digest the information we gathered, and to understand the link between subprime mkt and carry trade

carry trade = borrow at low interest currency and invest in high interest currency
subprime loans means loans given to pple with poor credit history
so subprime loans are risky
thus banks convert the loans into collaterized debt obligations (CDOs) to be sold to investors
because of banks' intervention, investors were willing to buy the CDOs
they buy using Yen carry trade = borrow yen, exchange for US dollar and invest using US dollar --> earn the yield between the 2 int rates
subprime mkt crisis --> borrowers unable to repay --> banks cannot pay investors --> investors unwind carry trade position --> Yen appreciates --> more prob to investors cos earnings depend on int spread
if yen appreciates, the spread will become narrower and the investor earns less or may even suffer a loss

Main assumption of investors:
1) Japanese economy will not recover
2) other countries will not do anything to help Yen appreciate

so the key qn: why is there unwinding of carry trade positions when investors believe that Yen will not appreciates --> subprime crisis

this is basically the main idea of my project
sounds easy? haha.

anyway, was super angry at my team member - Jinjie
he's totally a free-rider!!!
ask him to come for meeting, he say he has to work. cannot come for meeting
but he claims that he has done his part and has over 700 words, which i dun believe at all
ok. fine.
send him what we've done and the slides. ask him to comment. no reply
then call him, sms him. never reply.
suppose to let him and another teammate, Justin to present
only justin replied
in the end, onli justin presenting.
HE IS SO KNS!!! F*** YOU, JJ

we are the first group to present. so we dinno what to expect from the prof.
he asked all the grp members to go up even though we're not presenting
prof said he'll ask qn.
can you imagine how chua sai JJ feels?!
cos he doesnt know anything!
but it was smart of him to just stay at the back and keep quiet
DAMN YOU JJ.
but in the end prof onli poses qn to the whole group, not individually
so he just kept quiet.

do you know how much we've gone thru
me and kailing
we spent our entire 2 days doing the project lor
kailing had 3 quizzes on mon
i had 2
plus i have training 6 out of the 9 days of hols (though i skip one to attend FYP course)
we're so freaking running out of time and we have to clean things up for these kind of ppl

the 2 ang mohs in my team went on hols during recess, but still got do their job, although not a lot
ely and minghui did their part. but during the meeting, they're working on another project of another module
so they din participate in the meeting at all, though they're physically there
justin din come cos his grandpa is hospitalized
and then the f***ing son-of-the-bitch said he has to work. cant come.
what's left is onli kailing and me
we had to edit and summarize the ang moh, our and ely & minghui's part
then comes monday, justin said he did the same thing as ely and minghui
that means what kailing and i did is basically what our report will be
diaoz.
that means we did almost EVERYTHING for EVERYONE.
the feeling sucks totally k

end of complaining. blood still boiling tho
bf214 quiz was ok. open book. haha
but personality quiz sucks totally
it was like a real exam
20 short ans qn and 5 essays in 2 hours. omg
i seriously think the prof is crazy
this is only mid-term quiz for goodness sake!
but it was fun. cos i crap a lot

one example:
define 'experience sampling'
i wrote:
experience = expertise
it is to use expertise of a certain area of interest as the sample base, to collect data for the experiment
actual meaning:
to get a group of ppl to be tested everyday for a few weeks

haha. my ans is way off. im super crappy i know. even kailing laughs at me

ok. sch is fun i guess.
u get to know and interact with shitty ppl, as well as ppl who are nice
and getting to know crazy profs. haha.

2007-09-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

ok. today had napha test
which is damn chui
standind broad jump is only 178cm i think
sit-up was 45
shuttle run 11.3sec
sit and reach 47cm (just 1 more cm and i can get an A)
incline pull-up onli 39 (seriously chui cos tue had 1min of do-as-many-as-you-can of biceps, which i completed 39 times of 10kg)

and finally!
the 2.4 run
started off quite fast. 1st round was 1:90+ min den second round was 4:09
started to slow down at the 5th round, as usual
but luckily i ended up with 14:00 flat
which was superb cos i need not retake the run

this time round i felt much better
i mean i still can push more for the run
but seeing that you can overtake one or two you started to slow down
started to follow the pace of the one whom you've caught up with
nonetheless, i still did well. glee

met Ms Lim Wensi this afternoon
borrowed her popular card so that i can buy some assessment for my tutee
haha. she thought i was going to buy a lot of stuff so she brought me to the largest popular store at bras basah complex
she laughed at me though, cos i have never been to bras basah complex b4
sad.
den had lunch at food junction at bugis junction
ate omelette rice, which is actually japanese's omu rice
not the traditional one though, cos the sauce they had was very watery and not very black
watched 'Lunch Queen' and they show the original demiglace sauce was thick and black
but the presentation of the food and everything was nice

then off to mos burger to have a drink and i started studying while Ms Lim Wensi read her Naruto which she has just purchased from the popular bookstore.
nice.
then she had to leave for rehearsal for the peace day to be held tmr
and i continued to study at mos burger
it was quite nice, with music which i find a little too loud
mayb cos there were only a few pple so i find the music a little bit loud
still, i was able to study. hehe.
next time can come to town or wherever on wkdays:)

back to studying!

2007-09-18T15:39:00.000+08:00

ok. here's an update
last sat & sun was Sava Sprints
it was damn cool can!!!
1st race as a snr. finally.
sat was 500m and sun was 200m
went down for 6 rounds on sat
6 x 500m = 3000m
haha. cos for the women's open we started from heats to semis to plate finals
den the mix team from heats to semi to grand final
so altogether 6 races.
there was once when i just completed the semis for the mix race and i have to go down for another women's plate finals
which is so oh my gosh. freaking tired can!!!
but the feeling is great, esp for the mix race
cos i really can press hard and pull long all the way til the finishing line
the experience was just awesome
and when it comes to the women's plate finals i was damn chui alrdy. but my spirit is still very high. haha.
tot i wouldn't last for another 500m. but i still made it
our boat was very consistent in our strength, which means we've improved damn a lot
but still quite not there yet cos we din get into the grand finals
ah hee says our standard is only in the middle.
all of us felt that we need to do more strength training, like biceps, to improve more on our strength and power
our snrs also very chui. haha.
went for mix grand finals and the next race is women's grand final
the result is of course not that good cos it's really very tiring to row for 2 by 500m consecutively
i totally can understand their chui-ness

then come sun. whole body is aching like hell on sun morning. couldnt wake up at first. haha
we're the first to go down among the team.
morning syndrome setting in and it just feels weird cos 200m is really too short for us to go for our long pull
had to go for moderate and swift strokes for the 200m dash
its really a dash k!
just with a blink of an eye and we're there alrdy. ahha.
just like 500 races, we got into semis and no more. it was really too fast for us le.
snrs boat got 1st for the plate finals race, which is very surprising
cos their race had ard 4 boats coming in neck-to-neck. so we're not really sure who comes in 1st
but after that, the results show that they're 1st to finish.
nice!

then comes the mix race, which is even shorter, cos got guys ma
havent even get ready yet and the coaxier was alrdy calling for charging
haha. but the feeling is simply nice.
my boat came in 3rd in the grand finals, while the other mix team went for the plate finals.
dont really know which position they come in though.
but i know my boat underperform for the grand final's race
the girls felt that we're not stable. that we're all wanting to win so badly that our strokes are not stable
you dun really have the shiok feeling after the race.
as it turn out, we're slower by 1sec compared to the set we had for our semis

but overall not too bad cos we've never trained for mix at all prior to SAVA Sprints
there is still room for improvement!
and i believe we can do better the next time!
cheers!

2007-09-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

oh. forgot to add in this entry.
it's abt a Ms Loh Sin Wee who is to leave for Ireland tmr to study and practice to become a great doctor in the future!
my impression of her is that she's very tanned, tanned until u can call her dark man!
seriously
very cheerful. yes. her smile is the sweetest smile i've ever seen
and pretty.
but most impt of all is that she's a very talented rower and she's got a big fighting spirit
she used to be from NJ rugby team, so yeah. very sporty.

din really talked much to her cos my 1st impression of her is the pretty type, den can dress to kill those kind of girls. but i can sense that she's very friendly, from the way she talks and smiles
the only time when i ever had a deeper understanding of her is when we ran the 199 plus the 179 route tgt with Da Candice.
at that time i was totally chui ok!
ran the peaceful road with xiao ting den join them to run ard the whole sch
was super slow, of course
but sin wee kept talking to me, telling me to push on
and the imptance of never letting go
she told me how she felt during penang, when she was made to move from the middle of the boat to the last seat
she described to me how sad and disappointed she was at that time
but after that decided to improve on her stokes after the setback,
abt how she really wanted to prove that she is fit to stay at her original seat
that was the time when i realized that she is not just a pretty girl with the ability to run
but she really has character and fighting spirit, which is lacking in me

then after that i learnt that she had suffered quite a lot when she was young
young as in like when she was still an infant
she had appendicitis when she was just a baby and had to go through operations
there was once when she din had the appetite to eat cos of the pain she felt from that old wound
she was even laughing when she said, "mayb the doctors' skills were not that good 19 yrs ago."
i couldnt say anything to make her feel better. was shocked that she still can laugh at the matter
den months after i learn that her intestine is growing some bacteria again
i dunno how serious it was but i really think she's got a cursed life cos of her intestines
if i were her i really dunno wad to do man
yet again, she laughed, telling us not to worry cos she'll be studying at medical sch and the whole sch will be full of doctors who can treat her.
diaoz. she's damn diaoz la. cant say anymore
though she's younger than me, she's definitely a role model for me.
an inspiration to just laugh off matters, even if they are really bad news, or if im in a difficult situation

to sin wee:
i'll just hope that you will get better, and take care of your health
study hard man! becoming a doctor is not easy task. hehex
dun charge me so ex when i need to see you for consultation k!

2007-09-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

today's the second week of training with the juniors.
i seriously think training with juniors really pushes me a lot
quite surprisingly, im more willing to go the extra mile
and i find that i had more energy than before
today we ran slope
i used to hate running slope because it is simply too steep
and i always fall behind the rest
but today i managed to keep up, and i was even able to sprint when i was near the hill-top!
the feeling is incredible
although the others from my batch must have felt it that way long time ago
but i was glad that eventually i was able to feel wad they feel when they had first complete the run without lagging behind, and having the extra ounce of energy to sprint at the very end
having juniors seriously makes me better, as a teammate
i really feel proud, and i have the feeling that i am fit to wear the dragonboat singlets which represented that im their senior
although there is still this worry hanging inside my head, that when the juniors get better, they may get even better than me
but i just hope that i can hang in there and push myself further for this period.

budden, my ankle is dying on me
haha. i can feel the discomfort even when im walking
its not painful when i walk, just that it feels weird having some strain or discomfort ard my ankle while walking
the ankle strain started during the AHM run
after the run i was squatting down to rest, and that is when i felt the strain
but funnily, i din had the strength to stand up so that the strain does not worsen
had to wear ankle guard whenever i run, but still manageable
just that when i removed the ankle guard, there is this weird feeling coming from it
had to take care of my ankle man!!!
marlau came to talk to me with regards to my ankle just now
she said must take extra care, if not i'll prob suffer from knee prob, then hip prob if the strain on my ankle persists
which is quite scary because i felt pain coming from my knee joint earlier this yr
but i just disregard it, thinking that prob it's because i ran too much
haha. but come to think of it, mayb my ankle prob started out at that time, and it just became worse and noticeable after the marathon.

but anyway, i feel that i can still hang on :)
that there is still more room for improvement.
that i can realli be fit to be considered a part of the Phoenix team
that i can be finally called a teammate, without feeling a sense of guilt

it's the last yr that i can make a difference
that i can impress the others that i can really do it, that i can really make it
have to grab this last chance to prove myself.
that's the goal that i want to achieve: to graduate and leave the team proudly

2007-08-15T14:10:00.000+08:00

today's wednesday. so sad. i wanted to go OST, but i don't have time!!!
got tuition this evening at 7
planned to go for a run with xiaoting after that
cos my session ends at 830
so prob can reach sch at 9 den go for the run until like 10?
budden xiaoting is gg with lili at 6pm.
haiz. dis sem is terrible man!
all my evenings are full of stuff
training and tuition
which means im only left with fri night
but i dun really want to run on a fri night
cos the wkends will be filled with trainings again
and thurs will be running during training too
actually mon is the best time to run le.
haiz sad...
guess i have to start waking up in the morning to go for my runs ba. since my lessons only start in the afternoon
am now mugging in lib 3, the media resource lib
will mug til prob ard 630 before i go give tuition
muahaha. wenting is so shock that im mugging this early of the semester
but no choice le
last yr alrdy
have to really push up my grades to qualify for at least a 2nd-lower honors degree
hope my FYP can really push my grades up too.

taking derivatives this sem
but my frens say it's quite difficult
but some say must depend on the prof too
my prof is ok le. he explains everything quite simply so its easy for us to understand
but i guess my class is just too smart
stressed.
haha. learning mind over stress right now. gotta learn how to manage my stress man!

gotta go mugging le!
have to hand in Mind Over Stress rpt by 27aug
which means 1 day after my AHM
think i'll just die for the run. muahahahaha

2007-08-13T08:44:00.000+08:00

yoz! ok. it's early in the morning and i couldn't slp any longer
dunno why. haha. mayb becos i got used to waking up early
esp for trainings on the wkends

yesterday was my grandpa's bday
celebrated his birthday at home
everyone was here!!! so cool
my cousin brought her 3 kids too.
they are so omg. so naughty lor! lol
keep fighting with each other for toys
and the 2nd son keep wanting to buy some more toys. haha
and when you don't agree to him, he'll just cry.
the youngest is worst. keep crying. couldn't stand it. haha
hide myself in the room with my computer. :)

it was nice to gather once again
the food is good, cos my aunt bought some of it from some Zhi Cha stall near her workplace
but i was too tired. din even feel like eating lor
haha.

today's is the start of the CCA booth
haiz. nobody inform us which time slot we're suppose to go down le
the worst thing is... i put down my nam for all the time slots that im free
which means from now til 1230
and they said wadeva time slot u sign up for, u'll have to come down for that time slot
but this isn't what we're told the last time le
suppose to put in all the time slots we're free den they'll choose isn't it? as long as there are 4 pplr for each time slot, then it's fine.
diaoz. kena cheated.
anyway, still slacking at home, writing this blog entry now
haha. wonder what happens to the booth
i wonder if i shld go early to have a look. but i also dunno where the hell the booth is located
haha. have to depend on my luck den!!!
diaoz.

2007-08-10T15:09:00.000+08:00

ok. just attended my 1st lesson of the week
derivatives. the prof is damn cool can!
he explains everything like very simple like that
budden got a lot of readings to do la.
guess its not so easy after all
and he always ask a lot of questions on class
and my class is really smart can!
always seem to know the right ans... diaoz
damn stress
always like that de le. my class is always filled with smart ass
except for me
haha. gotta buck up man!
onli the 1st class and i alrdy felt the pressure increasing..
haiz.

dis wkend 9haz wanted a pot-luck gathering
but dunno who's hse to go to.
hopefully Ms Wenting can help us get her condo's function room
this potluck thingy has been raised for a very long time can!
but nobody seems to care much abt it...
its really getting more and more difficult to organise gatherings
so far, its only me who kept this thing going.
gotta buck up!!!
someone pls support me...

National Day

2007-08-09T13:43:00.001+08:00

ok. just looked through NTU imall to check out the books that im suppose to buy
got a few with quite reasonable price, but there are some which the edition has changed to a newer one
not sure if its ok to buy the older edition
gotta ask prof this coming friday

today's national dAy!!!
haha. gg to Ms Cheng Qianhui's hse at eunos to celebrate, tgt with Ms Cheung Hoiman
she doesnt seem to be in a good mood tho
cos yesterday we were trying to arrange a meeting time and place
and she sounds frustrated cos her tutee wants her to give her tuition today
and she's quite angry that she has to accomodate to her student everytime, i guess
still, she agreed to meet us dis evening
gonna have fun!!! muahaha
watch national day parade at home, eating pizza and having titbits
yeah! i love crashing to pple's hse

2007-08-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

ok. here's an update of the new week
sch starts on mon
haha. had to bring grandma to see eye doctor, so cant personally do my add-drop
asked xiaoting to do it for me
she's damn fast la!
i only had a non-core elective before this
but she added for me 3 more modules
and some of them are really very hot, like derivatives
cool.

im taking 5 modules this sem
quite siong, i would say
cos 2 core modules, 1 psy, 1 prescribed el, 1 general el
but ok la. anyway, my results aren't affected by the no. of modules i take cos it's always fluctuating at ard B
diaoz. never seem to improve my grades.
guess i really have to put in more effort into my fyp, and hopefully i can get an A for it
of not my honours degree sure die

yesterday had the 1st land training
quite siong too. but i guess its because everyone is not used to running so much after a long break
everyone feels weird when we're doing our run
i guess as time goes by, everyone will get better
except for me... im always so behind them. omg.

26aug is coming soon!!!
it's the army half marathon --- 21 click can!!!
damn shitty.
still dunno if i shld go sign up for standard chartered
cos the 42 click run is really like once in a lifetime thing
early bird special ends on 12aug
shld i??? even snrs take a long time to recover from the run
and they even had injuries due to the run, like leg sprains, muscle pull
im like not even close to their standard. dun think im suitable to join the run yet
but everyone is so hyped abt joining!!! though they're afraid too
haha. help me decide pls...

rebonded my hair today at kimage hairdressing school at funan IT mall
sat there for 6hrs 10mins, to be exact
hahaha
cos my hair is too layered
but i just wanna keep my hair straight, cos it tends to curl here and there, very frizzy too
but its really nice la.
to let students do ur hair
seeing them learn the skills and grow up
the girl who did my hair was named Jing Jing, from china la
though she very S L O W but i can sense her sincerity
she really tries to do her job well but there is some lack of enthusiasm and eagerness ba
i mean not everyone can sit there for 6 hrs and 10mins straight you know...
but i guess everything turns out fine. haha. you'll know when u see me
and i paid $70 onli! including treatment
muahaha. super good la. cos they charge me $55, the lowest rate for rebonding cos my hair is not too long
their rebonding charges is only btw $55-$75
so its super worth it. i mean Kimage le!!!
in the end, for the sake of my hair, i pon lesson again
but i guess its ok, since this is only the 1st wk
hehe.
but it still feels weird, starting sch without attending for the 1st lesson
cos normally 1st lesson will split into groups to do project le
but so far so good.
ok. promise to turn up for lesson on friday k
at least must show up for 1st lesson, to let the prof know that you exist. haha

2007-08-01T13:58:00.000+08:00

ok. here's an update
grandma suddenly complains that she feels giddy and she couldn't see properly
brought her to A&E dept at sgh yesterday
but the doctors couldn't find anything wrong with her
even had blood test taken for her
was recommended to see eye doc
and this morning just brought her to the eye centre for checkup
the doctor over there says it might be due to cataract, which causes her blurring of vision
so, arranged a date on 11/9 to be operated
had to come back for body checkup on the 29/8.

they say its most prob due to cataract that she couldn't see properly
other than that it seems fine
must wait until her cataract is removed then they can determine what's wrong with her
the eye doc also couldn't be certain if its her blurring of vision which causes her headache and dizziness, or the other way round
all in all, we just have to wait for her to go thru the op

been tired these two days
cos been running up and down the hospitals.
gotta rest more!

missed jay chou's tea party yesterday cos had to accompany grandma to the doc
sad. but still ok. cos Mingboon went and she complained that she could only see half of jay chou's body
cos he's simply too short! muahaha

going to watch the Simpsons movie with Hoiman tonight :)
my frens say its very funny.
cant wait to go watch it!!!
it'll be a break from all the things, and for me to relax and enjoy b4 sch starts
just checked my mail and i found out we need to pass a test, which i cant rem
the nbs dean said they had reviewed the curriculum structure to be more inlined with the expectations of the MAS.
the test was scheduled on a saturday!!!
and we must pass the test no matter wad. sad. if i fail it this sem, gotta take it the next sem.
diaoz. cant they just let us off once? omg.

2007-07-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

yoz! alright. here's an update of my life up til now.
although PA has ended, im still busy as ever. haha.
been watching HK dramas nowadays.
recently i've just started watching 'Attention please"
which is a story about a punkster who wants to become a cabin attendant
quite cute. cos the female lead is cute too :)
always makes a lot of trouble for her classmates and her teacher

today's another training. tmr we're racing in a race organized by the Punggol East GRC, i think
at the spore river
training started not long, and it began pouring.
dammit. we're stuck in rain. so had to do land training instead.
cant go down for water training.
Ah Hee says he will be focusing more on physical fitness from now on.
dammit. i really sucks at my physical fitness, especially running
today i sprint until the whole of my right back muscle feels compressed, and suan.
dunno why. ask candice, she said it's probably cos i swing my right hand too hard when i was sprinting
but very weird. i felt fine when i was doing some other exercises, which also requires me to move my right arm
not sure what exactly is wrong with me. haiz. gotta do something abt it
mayb see a doctor? but i dont think it's that serious le
and i dun trust that doctors are so capable that they could immediately detect what exactly is wrong with me unless their a specialist in the sports area.

Ah Hee warned that training's gonna be tough. shit.
and he made us do what was supposedly 2/3 of what are actual training would be today.
really shitty. my left tricep is not doing me proud
really aches a lot. dammit. i know my left arm is not as strong as my right arm
but i dun think i really train a lot on both of my triceps, yet the difference is so great.
my right tricep is not even aching, yet my left tricep is dying.
argggggggggggg
i really really hope that i could still bear the training when school starts
i really hope that i can hang in there!!!
haha.
at least after the 21 click army half marathon!!!
oh my goodness
my legs will break after i go for the run. haha.

2007-07-20T10:58:00.000+08:00

ok. today's the last day of my internship.
happy :)
sup says i dun have to call anyone today.
he said that the HR department needs to talk to us abt something
needs to sign for some documents
i think it's the disclosure rule thingy
like not to disclose anything that we've seen or heard at the co.
den after that we can go home already!
wow. cool.
hopefully i can leave by lunch time!!!
yippee!

yesterday sup treated huiwen and i to Riciotti Italian Deli and Pastry
it's a restaurant at china sq
it has another outlet at riverwalk, which i visit often
nice place.
but smaller than the Riverwalk's
less variety too
ordered pizza lunch set
stupid me
din ask how big the pizza was and i ordered for it alrdy
it turned out to be a 10-inch pizza
hahaha. din finish it
left 1 slice and some crusts
then it was my favourite pastry!
had soffiato, a warm dark chocolate cake served with cookies n cream ice cream
it's sth like beard papa's choc fondant
but it's shaped like a volcano, with the core filled with melted choc
the not-so-sweet cake blended well with the ice cream
so yeah. everything was nice!
this is the 3rd time sup is treating us
haha.
thanks boss!
although he's such a slacker... which i dont like

2007-07-18T14:58:00.000+08:00

ok. 2 more days to go before my internship ends.
cant wait for it to end quickly man!
wanna rest and relax as much as i can with the remaining little time i have for my holidays
dammit.

just checked my mail the day before.
guess wad.
i saw an email from Ms Lee Xiaohong, my captain
she said it is COMPULSORY to join the Army Half Marathon
it is a gruelling 21km run lor. lol
was super shocked at this
i mean i wasn't really keen on joining these kind of runs
but if i were to join, i'll probably choose 10km.
but this.... this is 21 click!!!
omg.
couldn't imagine how im gonna complete the race.

dead. so dead

2007-07-13T09:53:00.000+08:00

ok. today's friday morning!
finally man!
hahaha. been super bored and not psyche up these few days
dats y i keep blogging
hehe.
tired. even though i slept more than my usual days...
but happy still.
gg to watch Harry Potter this evening!

anyway, saw some articles abt Daniel Radcliffe
he was so cute when he's in The Socerer's Stone can!
but now is like &%#*&%#@
hahaha.
ok la.
Emma (Hermione) is looking good. pretty girl. :)
guess everyone has grown up, and old
sad.

Bored

2007-07-12T14:41:00.000+08:00

super bored now can!
im falling aslp.
hahaha.

just now went to lunch with esther and wenting
wenting is finally back in office, not gg client's place to do auditing
hehex. lucky!

my cousin, Ms Seet Yi Lin, wants to find a black belt
simple, plain, black leather belt
she spotted one in GUESS. but she now GUESS not having sale
regretted. ahha.
just now went to river island to help her seek out her belt
they have black belts. but their buckle is super gross
super big 'pirates' logo plus diamonds.
super funky, i would say. but not for working ladies. pls.
and it was 150. even though it was on SALE.
hahahahaha. omg.
the shoes are nice and simple. prices are 100+
haha. are their shoes and clothes made of gold?!
why izzit so ex?!
even the super ex espirit and mango or G2000's sales are realli wad i call 'sales' ok
river island is just too #!@%&@%^%

anyway, nice catching up with people, and to know that they're doing fine. :)
sweet.
tmr is friday!
happy!

haha. planned to write short and simple rubbish cos im bored.
in the end this entry is still so long.
guess i really have nothing better to do.

2007-07-12T09:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday i had lunch with esther!
hahaha. ate at BK though
not a sumptous meal but still ok la. :)

chatted for a while and esther has to leave to go back to office alrdy.
yesterday was the first time i found out that wenting and esther didn't get into the same company!
omg. and next week is alrdy the last week of our attachment
hahaha. im slow. budden, nobody ever tell me that they're not in the same co. le.
furthermore, they work so near each other. so i con't to misunderstand that they are working in the same co.

anyway, Ms Teng Oon Tang has to go back to NTU to do auditing
it's a co. that is located near NTU.
a building which i have never heard of. so i dinno where the hell it was
however, i do know some ULU co. are located in NTU
mostly engineering co.
poor wenting. has to travel all the way back to sch every morning and evening
cant imagine man!
i bet she din have to wake up so early even when she has sch lor
cos she stayed in hall ma.

i'll die if i were her man!
budden i still have to travel back to boon lay tonight.
to give tuition.
but luckily i don't have to travel back to tampines after my tuition
cos i'll be staying over at my aunt's
hehe
bless me!

tmr im gg to meet Ms Lim Wensi for lunch at vivo
not sure how to go there from my co. though
cos the road in front of my co. is only 1 way
so i have to fig out where is the other 'way' for me to take the bus
dunno if it's the street in front, or the street behind
hahahaha. but i guess it shld be in front le, behind Hong Leong Finance that side.
gotta check streetdirectory.com then!

tmr night. watching Harry Potter with wensi and mingboon!
so sweet. only 3 of us, and it is a lte night movie
cant wait to watch it
but i saw the interviews with the actors
they say this movie is even darker than the rest.
which means not nice?
dunno. dun care
watch le den say. hehe :)
looking forward to Friday!

2007-07-11T14:59:00.000+08:00

ok. forgot to posts some events.

on dunno which day, i went to celebrate Hoiman's cum Siewkia'a bdae at Central
there were hoiman, siewkia, me and qianhui
ate at Manhattan Fish Market
we had a nice and warm dinner
all 4 of us sharing a plate of ______ platter (sorry, i cant rem)
but it was nice

everyone was quite tired though. hehe
esp hoiman and me!
cos we walked from raffles place all the way to Central
followed kaijuan's instructions to go behind OCBC building and we'll reach Central
budden we dunno wad her 'behind' means
so we ended up walking 1 big round b4 we finally get to Central
after we saw Central, then we search for OCBC buidling to see where it is
in the end, kj was right.
diaoz
she literally means 'behind' OCBC building. i mean she gave the directions according from where we would come from
so nice of her. to be able to picture the direction from which we come from and direct us to our destination
but we think too deep le
haha. mistook her words... sad.
i'll listen to you literally from now on, kj!

on 7/7/7, met wensi for shopping trip
we wanted to get bubble tea
but we're at city hall, suntec and MS area
omg. how come there's not a single bubble tea shop ard this area?
and raffles place, my working area?
are the people here so health conscious?
anyway, mistook this shop 'Rocky Masters' for a bubble tea shop
but i rem correctly that this 'Rocky bla bla' is some bubble tea shop le
bugis got 1 near the MOS burgers also called 'Rocky bla bla' le. wth.
but they sell nice pizzas though
lunch time special!
4.50 per 5" pizza
they gave a large amt of ingredients for the pizza le!
super value for money

after that Ms Lim Wensi brought me to this chocolate bar in Esplanade
the logo is a bald man.
the shop is called 'The Bald Man, ________, chocolate bar'
haha
cant rem his name
anyway. the chocolate is super thick. but nice
the potteries (is that wad u call) used to contain the fondue, and drinks are very unique!
they use metal straws!
haha. and egg-shaped cups
go there and try someday ba,
although i cant rem exactly where the shop is located
warning: do not order cold chocolate drinks because the serving is damn big
better go dere on an empty stomach, or else u'll feel super bloated.

i guess that's all for my updates. hehex :)

2007-07-11T09:45:00.000+08:00

Been a hectic month.
Im finally taking a break now.

1st up was my June race and PM cup.
so sad that we've lost.
we've cried tears of pain and agony.

after the PM race at bedok reservoir, we went to Phoenix hotel for dinner.
presented gifts to graduating seniors and sin wee!
she's leaving us to go to ireland to study.i cant remember what is she studying for. either doctor or pharmacist
anyway, there's a lot of thanksgiving going around.
it just feels weird.
i know they're leaving, but i know they are still around me.
like living inside my heart.
i'll never forget the runs we had.
how you guys keep telling to keep pushing, to keep up with e rest of the team
im sorry that i didnt meet ur expectations
but sometimes i really tried hard to achieve what you guys said to me.
anyway, thanks for always smiling when i really did a good run (which is like so rare) and never giving up on me :)
am grateful for all your guidance.
anyway, i bet the gifts are nice.
hehex. spent a lot of time and effort to do the alboms ok!
must keep them in good shape ah!
and the videos are nice too.
haha. amusing but touching too.
we captured all the graduating seniors' different kinds of traits
Tingting: muscular and strong woman
Cuimei: everything is slow, except for running
Ham: always so energetic. got 'shocking' face
Donne: pushing youself even though you have serious back-pain
i am proud of you all. thank god that our paths crossed. you guys are amazing

den back to work. haiz. work sucks like hell can!
super boring.
been trying to cold call all the China Chinese
to ask them do survey
omg.
kept stuttering la. then some of them laughed at me when i tried to note down their email add
their eng is so funny can! dun understand...
sad. kena laughed at.

been hanging out with friends. shopping, eating.
haha. nice life
but a bit guilty. cos din exercise le. din go and run.
omg
and tuition starts le. have to travel back to Jurong West to give tuition twice a week.
haiz. still as busy as ever, even though training has stopped.

hectic weekend for last week
7/7/07
Cousin Yi Lin's bdae party. that day was also esther's church production!
sorry esther. couldnt make it for your production.
anyway, played mahjong until 4+ can!
haha. at first i keep losing, but luckily Cousin He Xian's gf helped me to win games
so in the end, i only ended up losing $3, splitting between cousin's gf and me
so i payed $1.50 only
lucky me :)

took cab home with my siblings.
saw police stting up road blocks at the end of the PIE going towards tampines
so cool!
its e 1st time i see a road block, and its in the morning at 4am!
must really take my hat off for the police can!
but even if its at 4am, some cars were made to pull over
haha
but they dont seem drunk or anything like dat le...
weird

8/7/07
anyway, went home to slp for about 6 hrs
woke up at 10+
den go to sdba
suppose to participate in this CURL project organised by the NTU welfare club la
in the end i was late
cos i forgot to bring my ezlink card out!
went home to get it. so i ended up late by half hour
by the time i reach dere, they're already out in the sea le
haiz. sad.
but luckily i came with all 3 paddles and 3 sponges, which i took home last time after the PM race
so my trip is not wasted. *hengs*
after the training for the CURL project
we went to indoor stadium to train ourselves.
it's a secret for what we do so no more elaboration.
but i can only say it's quite tiring

then! back to home to bathe and have dinner
after that at 9+ i reach airport
have to send Ms Ong Li Ting off to China
she's on GIP.
haha.
din give her any presents though
just some cakes and bubble tea!
hahahaha.
so cool can!
gg overseas to work cum study. nice.
would love to travel to another country to work the next time.
nice experience :)

then back to home sweet home again.
at 12+
omg.
dun think i stayed more than 10 hours at home for these 2 days lor. lol

den comes monday.
totally dieded.
slept in the office for the whole afternoon
ahahha
couldnt care less. i literally lie on my table and sleep
even though many pple are walking ard my cubicle and i bet they can see that im slping
hehex

2007-06-05T11:24:00.000+08:00

hohoz... im finally starting to write on my blog again.
been leaving it for idle too long.

anyway, here's an update.
been living like a zombie for this past one month
one more month to go and im freed!
hurray!
guess i'll look back and miss these days
cos its so enriching, fun, exciting, and occupied.
my days never end before 11pm. haha.

watched Pirates 3 with my dragonboaters!
nice show. i din slp throughout the movie! cheers for me!
most of them slept a great deal la...
tay chuan, sin wee, jolene, soo shuen, cheryl, and many more...
haha
it was so funny
cos we're discussing about the movie in the toilet.
everyone was laughing at each other, gauging how much of the movie each of us had missed.
damn funny.
guess we're too tired.
even the journey to cine was damn tired.
when everyone finally get to settle down on the bus (yes, we flooded the bus)
we were damn reluctant to alight, even though we've reached our destination
Ms Cui Mei was the only one who was still clear minded.
she simply looked at us and exclaimed, "don't you guys wanna get down?"
hahaha.
i guess watching a movie which is 3-hr long after training is a bad idea.
haha. simply exhausted. burnout.

Sunday was a nice day.
wanted to go Sentosa to watch the musical fountain
but we were too late. should have bought the tics 1st b4 we had our dinner
anyway, had our dinner at sushi tei @ vivo
den dessert in Marche.
met my primary school classmate cum JC schoolmate, Nicholas Lim
he was working there, so he said he can give us staff discount
as we only had dessert there, we managed to get 50% discount on our bill
haha. it was so damn cheap when the cashier told us the amount we're suppose to pay
anyway, we happened to meet the big boss of Marche when we went there...
he was having dinner with his family or friends.
we made a big commotion, cos i think irene and wenting failed to coordinate with each other
we wanted to buy takeaway bread from the store
one of them was handling the bread, the other was handling the paperbag
when they are putting the bread into the paperbag, somehow someone missed and dropped the bread
so we're like so anxious, cos we dunno wad to do with the dirtied bread. no dustbins nearby. haha
in the end, the big boss seems to be like some hero, who came to rescus us
hahaha. that's wad lurong said

nice evening, nice place. haha
most imptly, i found a great place to have fun
its the pool outside Marche
we were basically playing water battle. splashing water onto each other. haha
yes. a bunch of 21-yr-olds playing in the pool, tgt with all the small little kids
hahaha.
had much fun :)

yesterday, i met up with some of my S102 classmates for dinner
Mr Huiteng intro us to a restaurant opp Golden Shoe plaza or building
nice ambience, cool gadgets.
the place is like a mini starbucks, where you can go online, sit down and discuss things
its more like a relaxing work station
got meeting rooms with sound-proof walls, copiers, wifi phones for you to make overseas calls
the coolest thing is that there is a long stretch of cable thingy
and u just plug in a detachable socket and you can plug ur laptop into it
the socket is not launched in the market yet
the boss said its going to be in the mkt by Sept this yr.
cool.
den can charge handphones for free. use their wifi phones for free too.
cant believe got such shops
everything seems to be free, except for the food
the food is nice. just wad a typical western restaurant would serve.
but they said they're still working out on the menu
the eventual pdt would be that customers would order their food from their table.
yes. the table would have some CPU installed so they can order it from the table.
prices of food ranges from 6.9 for sandwiches to 11 or 12.9 for main courses. reasonable i would say.
go check it out guys! ahahaha.

2007-05-07T12:01:00.000+08:00

Today is Ms Lim Wensi's 1st day at work.
dunno how izzit for her.
haha.
she said she's quite scared of it, cos she dunno wad to expect
anyway. my PA company still hasn't posted anything yet on the PA website
so i also dunno when to report
and what time to leave. haiz.
can someone pls tell me what im suppose to do?

2007-04-10T22:57:00.000+08:00

Today was the last day for our final presentation for Communications.
Everything went well, except that many of them went too fast
We were given 8min to talk to our audience
but most of them finish their speech by 4min 30
dat was way way below the time limit!
haha.
so funny.
den the whole class started to find questions to ask, so that the whole presentation for that person can stretch until 7min +++
cool. we're so united!
i love my AB214 class!
Muacks!

many of their presentation was good today
realli nice listening to them talk
i realli like their ideas
some were too nervous until they needed a 2nd trial
haha.
i din expect such things to occur, but we did it!
onli for our grp i guess. :)
anyway, the tutor started talking abt dis coming friday's test
he literally gave us all the hints
about wad the question was abt, wad genre it belonged to
for example the question is on writing an email to convery a negative message, with elemnts of persuasion, which i suck at it :(
then he also promised that he'll go through the question once before we start, on friday
cos he said he was confused when he read the scenario given
even the tutor is confused. wad about us?!
haha.
but he's so kind to want to go through the question with us
guess we can really score well this time. hehe.
god bless.

today was a full day
class ended at 230pm
den project mtg for Adv Corporate Finance
lasted until 430pm
havent had lunch
went to LWN lib to find xiaoting to eat with me.
of course, at 430pm, she had already had her lunch
so she jz sat across the table, reading her notes, while i finish my meal
nice fren!
muacks!
den so many pple in the lib when i reach dere
heard tay chuan & wei shan actually booked the tables
from morning until 5+ when i reach the lib!
heard fom yan han that you need to rush in the moment the lib opens at 830am in order to book seats
haha. cant imagine the flood of pple coming in, when the lib door opens
so kua zhang!
anyway, thanks to my dearest vice-cap for booking the seats for us. muacks!

2007-04-09T12:56:00.000+08:00

Last Sat was fun!
we celebrated wenting's borthday at Miss Clarity
its a western restaurant near national library
nice ambience and fantastic food
esther forgot to make reservations
so we had to hurry finish up our food before the next person who had reserved the table come
so jin zhang! the food came at around 7pm and we're expected to finish eating and settle our bills by 730pm!
guess what, we managed to complete the task by 720-725!
haha.
it was the fastest meal i ever had, when we go out for gatherings. :)
after the dinner, we went to tcc
to sit down, have coffee and chat
after that we sang "Happy Birthday" to wenting outside tcc
nice
den had photos taken at the "I Was Here" sculpture at NAFA.
we managed to climb onto the stones and took some pictures
but were soon warned by the security guard
haha.
alas, it was home-sweet-home time
so we separated.

Sun. came back to school for 2 mtgs
9AM. BF322. din discuss much
cos we're more focused on doing our own parts of the report + slides
after that study in the lib
den lunch.
thank god Youwen, my snr, came to school to study
so she volunteered to buy lunch for all of us
there were YY, Tay Chuan, Suat Wei, Sylvia and Qianyi
so many of us. wth. its like a small gathering on a SUN morning in SCH
after that i carried on with my 2nd mtg, until the lib closes at 430pm
den went down to can A to study with the rest
Adeline and Wai Lai came shortly after that.
when i was about to leave, Yan Han came to us
cos she claimed that SAC was too cold. :)
suat wei, who claimed that she's too slpy and went back to her hall earlier
too tired. i mugged until 630pm before i left home for dinner.
the rest con't mugging when i left
cool.

it was kinda good cos i realli studied hard during that few hours we spent tgt
nxt time mz mug tgt again!
on a SUNDAY. :)

Crabbing

2007-04-06T11:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a fun day!
haha.
went catching crabs with yanru!
haha
caught 21 crabs and some prawns too.
i was damn lucky yesterday
cos we only reach the SAF Yacht Club at around 730 - 8pm and we stayed until 11+ to 12AM
so it was very good to catch so many crabs and prawns within these few hours

Anyway, after catching the crabs, we steamed it on the spot
haha.
the crabs were very sweet, some saltish cos of the salt water
nice.
it was the first time i ever eat a crab properly
cos it's always my mum who gave me all the claws, or even the meat when she had dealt with the stupid crabs
so anyway, i learnt how to shell the crabs MYSELF!
haha. nice. but my fingers are in pain, esp when i need to eat the meat from the claws
need my fingers to pry open the shells before i can eat the flesh
the claws were quite hard, so it was quite difficult to eat, as compared to the body

anyway, had much fun yesterday!
din study too!
cos i didn't bring any books home.
was locked out of the hse yest, cos i forgot to bring keys
and nobody was at home when i return
so i had to come to Tampines.
den realise my brother was down with chicken pox
mum actually didnt want me to come back
cos i had not had chicken pox, and my exams are near
so she's very scared i'll get it too.
anyway, i guess tmr, SAT, i'll be returning back to boon lay
cos i want to study
plus i have a mtg on SUN.
so sad. but i kind of love it to go back to schools on wkends
cos less people to fight the seats with you
i kind of like the isolation and the desertedness of the school
so peaceful and serene.
nice

2007-04-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

today is a happy day for me!
cos i had 2 presentations in a row!
1030-1230 i had presentation for research methods
and my prof gave me A!

my next presentation for Communications
got a 3, while the best speaker in my class got a 3.5
so im not that far behind!
so happy :)
how i wish i have such good grades when it comes to examinations
haha.

anyway, after all my presentations
i went to library 2 to meet for group discussion
it was the first time i step into library 2
and its the first time i borrow a red spot book
Red spot book = textbook
haha.
my frens kept laughing at me
cos i look so sua koo
never do such things before

den in the library, found someone actually lock their computers
so they can be sure that no one, except themselves can use the computer until they return!
there is some function within the network which allows you to do so
wow! super cool la! dinno you could do dat
i tot the worst thing is to put some of your belongings on the seat to hog the seats
locking the computer is even cooler
fantastic
wonder when will i learn such techniques. haha.
even though my frens will teach me how to use
i wont rem the procedures for long
cos i simply do not need to do so!
i'll just use the computer until im done with my work
and i'll just leave
if i still need to use my comp, i'll just go home to use it
dun have to be afraid that i wont have a seat in the library
dats the beauty of not staying in hall, and to be able to live so near sch :)

2007-04-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

Today went for OST with Xiaoting.
damn tiring cos we did fart-leg (i guess its spelled like dat)
anyway, onli ran 6 rounds in all, with only 2 rounds of sprinting
haha. super nua le!
den after that din do gym workout
cos rushing home to complete on my presentation for Communication
was doing on the topic of 'Raising Awareness of Fitness in NTU'
haha. stupid idea. cos the question is on 'How to improve NTU'
anyway, xiaoting and I went into the new gym to take some photos of it
before that i also went to take a few photos of the old gym.
must contrast ma.
haha.
funny. cos never do such things before. :P
but its fun!
cos i get to make fun of xiaoting, who is so camera-shy!

Friends

2007-04-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

Today I went to Wensi's hse to get her to listen to my speech for my Communication presentation. She gave some ideas to improve my presentation and she gave some comments, or maybe more on ways that I could personalise my speech so that it becomes more natural when I speak.

She's really a good friend, even though she has tonnes of homework awaiting for her too! Really appreciated her help. I really feel that I can score better after listening to her advice.

It's so fortunate to have such good friends, even though we're no longer studying in the same school. I have always heard from my professors and teachers saying that, friends whom you made in your university are going to be your friends for a lifetime. However, I totally disagree because I still go out with my secondary school and JC friends. I feel much closer to them than when I was with friends I made in NTU, I feel that they are the ones who would be with me for a lifetime.

Anyway, this post is a tribute to Ms Lim Wensi for her kindness.
Thanks gal!

2007-03-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

very sad...
yesterday went ost with soo shuen, tay chuan, cheryl and lixian
super chui
ran hall 16 + peaceful road (behind nanyang executive)
at first was ok, though i find it a bit fast
bit after we cross the road to the nanyang executive,
i dieded le...
the slope at hall 11 totally sucked away all my energy
haha.
no kidding. need a lot of fart-leg trainings
decided that i shld go training on fri evening, sat & sun morning
shld focus on my running and no more...
think my rowing techniques can come later
cos my most disturbing prob is my stamina right now
it's more impt right now...
gotta train hard man!!!

read an email from adele, supoosedly is one of my seniors who have graduated
she mentioned that during a race, someone sitting in front of her fell from her seat at the charging part
dat was so similar from my experience in my MR500 race!
except that i din fell from my seat
the girl who fell was Pang, my ex-captain
she explained that she was trying to kick her body up, but slipped and fell
cried a lot. haha.
but teammates sitting behind her told her, "it's ok. i rowed doubly hard for you."
so koo!!!
that's wad we call the 'Phoenix" spirit (our team is called Phoenix)
haven't really experience this kind of feeling yet
mayb i feel that i do not have the qualifications to be considered their teammate
but i'll train doubly hard!!! i promise!
i felt that my body is getting into condition
its just my way of breathing, which exhaust me a lot
always panting hardly, cant breathe, esp when we do sprints
i know my legs are not tired, yet i can't push any further
partly due to my mentality
my mental strength is extremely weak
how to change my mind???
get a new brain???
i know i shld tell myself that i can, dont give up
but strangely, once i heard pple telling that "you can do it"
there's an inner voice that tells me "i cant do it"
WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY MIND???

if i still dont change my mentality, i'll be eliminated soon
gotta change
CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE

-end-

2007-03-27T11:11:00.000+08:00

very sad and afraid.
cos ah hee mentioned that we'll be doing lotsa of sprinting after our exams,
when training resumes
he already warned me that chance is in my hands
if i dont grab it, it will be lost
dammit
gotta run more!
run everyday!
more importantly, i need to sprint more to improve my stamina
hate sprinting for long distance, especially 400m in 1 shot

realli dun wanna be kicked out of the team
its like a commitment thingy
put in so much effort, committed myself so much
realli dun feel like just quitting and stopping
really have to work hard
press-on and improve myself

this is a promise, not only to myself, also to my teammates...

-end-

2007-03-22T15:45:00.000+08:00

been really busy these few days.
cos really have many mtgs going on.
oh! I've made a remarkable progress on my mugging.
yesterday mugged with serena at her hall's TV lounge.
realli nice place and koo
there's air-con in that room too!
nice ambience too. hehe.

anyway, realli must start on my revision le.
Dis week is my last week of training.
They usually stop training abt 3 weeks to exams.
so that means im only left with 3 weeks' of preparation!
yucks!
time is really pressing me!
and i still have 1 more Research Methods presentation in the week of April 2
plus my final presenation for Communications on that same week and same day!!!
super disgusting topic: Find ways to improve my school
yucky subject. seriously.

Then for the last week of term, I will be having another presentation for Advance Corporate Finance
Dammit!
How come all of my presentations comes at the last minute~
save me~~~

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2007-03-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

today marks the end of the MR500 race, held at Seletar Reservoir
realli sucky for me
cos i screwed up in the 1st race -- Mix Team B
it was a race with the guys
the guys were super fast
and at the end, when they go for charging
the boat was too jerky that i lost my balance
the coaxier, Edward, had to push me back with his knee to get me back into position
realli sucky.
cos the seniors standing on the shore watching dinno wad happen
once i reached shore, they were questioning, "Why did you stop halfway?"
i just replied them they were too fast and i lost my balance.
after that they didn't say anything much.

Actually I did not feel that bad at first.
It was until Li Si, our own female coaxier came to ask me whether I was scolded.
It was then that it dawned on me that I've made a terrible mistake
by losing my balance, not to be able to carry on
started to tear. haha. I know it's very maloo but I cant help it.
couldn't face the team, as well as the guys team.
really sad and embarassed.

after that my captain, xiao hong, had to come and comfort me
cos it was so obvious that im utterly disappointed by my performance after my talk with Li Si
and i was isolating myself
she said something about outsiders may not be able to understand the problems the rowers face when they're racing
so they may over-react and say those words to you.

i think my captain and vice-caps, especially ah hee, my coach is very nice to me
for the mix team finals, ah hee selected me to go down again
this time round its the same boat and the same position in the boat
as if to make me go through the humiliating event again.
but this time round, i tried to keep my body low, and to always lean my body forward
so that i will be less affected by the jerking when the boat goes into the final charging
it ended up to be a good race, i guess.
cos i think we got third for that race. will have a medal i guess. **glad
din cock up the show.

straight after that was the women's finals
i really went all out
my teammates also really went all out
we did better than yesterday
yesterday for the heats, the backpack couldn't hear the drummer's commands at all
in the end, the midpack and the backpack people only have 1 single stroke rate all the way
if the race were to carry on for another 20m, we could have lost and become 2nd or 3rd.

but todays' finals, we emerged fourth.
cos the other boats were really very strong
NUS was 1st, winning us by 8sec, after that was NTU canoeists, den RP dragonboaters
the last was the Bristish
the previous Breast Cancer Race, we couldn't even match up with the British
and today, within just 3 months, we could beat them
that calls for some celebration, i guess.
ah hee was satisfied with our results, and he was sure we will not come in last
he's so zhun3!!!
haha. we were super close to NUS
he said we keep biting their starts, keep following them and in the end they didn't win us by a lot
just ard half to 3/4 boat's length
wad a great news, considering they trained more than us, and even harder
ah hee says they trained too hard, that's why they underperformed
but its also an advantage cos this means that all of their fitness is already there
they just need to focus on their techniques and they'll pull away even further than us

all in all, today was a memorable day
with good and bad things to be remembered
will continue to improve and to perform better

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2007-03-12T16:17:00.000+08:00

Been really burnt these 2 days
haha
had training on sat n sun
sun was the worst
9am, we trained with the guys team
i think it was ok
except that they are too good in splashing water le
haha
totally cant open the eyes

after that helped amos to coach his church pple
super angry at the small little boys
and i have 2 cuts
1 on the hand and 1 on the leg
the leg was hurt when i was trying to help people into the boat
but the small little boys wanted to play rocking
so that's the time when i got the cut from the gunrail i think

next is the cut on the hand
was caused when i was trying to row us back onto shore
knocked into the outer part of the gunrail
haha
super shang1 hen2 lei2 lei3

den at night
went to kbox with the 9haz
most of them la
singing n singing all the while

when i come back
my skin is super pain!
sun burnt
haha
put ice onto my face to ease the heatiness
haha
must avoid the sun these few days man!
im gg to be so aunty
go out must bring umbrella or sth i guess
haha

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2007-03-04T18:50:00.000+08:00

been really sucky these two days
super tired
and low in energy
probably due to my flu
but i hate the kind of feeling
i wanna train
but no mood and no energy to train
haha.
dammit

anyway, tmr going to meet prof choo, regarding fyp
so soon lor!
we have to decide on a topic for fyp and decide on the prof le
shit.
dunno wad to expect from fyp at all le
haha
like sheep in the big city.
havent prepared anything yet.
going to meet tmr b4 our meeting with the prof
hehe
dunno whether he will be a nice prof
if he is, lucky us
den we dun need to search for another one
but i have a feeling that our idea would be rejected
we wanted to do a financial consultant firm for the vietnamese
cos my fren said the vietnamese are getting richer but they dunno where to invest their money
to make money out of money
u know.. the finance kinda stuff
so we are there to help them invest, buy financial pdts
also, we can assist overseas firm to invest in vietnam
give them advice or sth
its a great idea
but i highly doubt that it would be an easy topic to do for fyp
haha
bless us!

two tests. dammit
communication --> persuasion
and psychology --> 6 chapters
right now, ive only read thru 5 chapters but i have yet to memorise them
ya know... psy is all about memorising and churning out wadeva u rem onto the exam script
dammit. no time and no energy
so many things to do!
dieded.

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2007-03-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

today pon training. haha
went to temple to pray to tai sui
so sad. been down with flu all day
super uncomfortable.
cos i think ive not been slping well
been awake until 2am these two days
thurs night was studying for psychology test
yesterday was watching tv
cos we had night rowing
dats y when i came back, i just felt like nua-ing

dunno what they did for todays' training. gotta find out from them next wed
when we meet for gym training
promise*

amos, esther's bf called me today
to ask me to coach his church frens
hehe
dunno whether i can do it
haha
never really tried coaching pple b4 le
anyway, i only had 1 yr's experience
haha
so funny.
but i guess it's only to guide some amateurs
so i think it should be ok
:)
god bless me!

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2007-03-01T18:02:00.000+08:00

yoz. today had a gathering with our so-long-never-see Ms Tan Lurong
went to chinatown, where she works
yupz she's working now
coming to NTU soon, i hope

we went to an organic shop that sells basically nothing except vege and cheese
even the pasta was fully covered with cheese
too cheesy. dun like
haha
ate halfway den give up
esp when the pasta had turned cold and the cheese had turned more thick
yucks!
never to go there again
but the ambience of the shop is nice
music, books ard
and the seats are couches
nice feeling
like a garden

after that went ard to look for dessert shop
cos we wanted to have desserts!
like mango ice or sth
finally settled on a HK dessert shop
ate tang yuan! my fav!
the skin is super soft. nice.
esther and wensi had mango something something
irene had egg white with dunno wad
wenting was some egg thingy also
but it really looks like the sauce that was added to the tofu, sold in coffeeshop's rice stall
haha.
anyway, they claimed that i was too high, after i had the glutinous rice balls
haha. i feel that im ok le. dunno y. dun bother

super tired today still
muscles aching
yesterday we did gym
then countless sets of 60 strokes
fast ones ok!~
super tiring
den ah hee was announcing that some of need to eliminated
or else there wont be enough spaces for the next batch of yr 1s.
so serious. so sad.
cos i know i'll definitely be one of the top few in the blacklist
haha. cos i cant run. dammit.

ah hee hinted that those not called to enter the race on March 16&17 would be highly probable to be kicked out of the team
but in the end, he still pulled out all of the seniors, who are graduating.
obviously he wants to give everybody more chances to prove ourselves
that we can make it
so kind of ah hee.
he said our last chance would be the june race
that means those not selected for PM cup would be eliminated!
dammit.

worried sia.

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2007-02-27T14:19:00.000+08:00

yoz. another entry today.
been super refreshed this morning.
had group meeting to discuss tut qn for adv corporate finance module
nice ambience over at boon lay library
no people somemore.
its the 1st time that i've been there
nice building.
very quiet and beautiful
serene, i would say.

always thought of going there to study one day
but too lazy to carry all my books over there to study
haha.
will try to get more pple the next time when i wanted to go out study
anyway, im not really the kind who can study outside
esp with close frens
can imagine that im talking to them most of the time
hehex.
that's me!

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2007-02-26T17:58:00.000+08:00

yoz! it's another training day for me.
but hey! it's the start of my 1 week recess break
cant wait for it to start, these few days

training's as usual
4 days: mon, wed, fri, sat
super busy
still have meetings and gatherings

just celebrated serena's birthday on sat.
we went to surprise her at the chalet jon booked for her.
we are super crazy
we hid her presents everywhere in the room
and got her to find it
kind of funny
cos she took so long to find them.
some of them are so obvious but she still couldn't find it
had to give hints until its super obvious k!

anyway, the celebration is kind of in a hurry
cos many pple still had a 2nd gathering after that
so we had to end it quick

anyway, been super tired today. slept until 5pm when i reached home
haha
missed lunch too
but weird
din feel hungry YET.
haha.

gonna feel sick soon man.
the weather's super hot these few days la!

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2007-02-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i've posted an entry.
so here it is!
been training hard le!
haha.

still so chui. cos now our dear captain, xiao hong, wanted to increase the training
every sprinting round must have timing --> under 2 min
damn shitty
today we ran 2 rounds warm up
5 rounds, alt round sprinting under 2min
den 3 rounds of cool down
actually should onli be just 2 rounds more
but i ran too slowly that ms xiao hong wanted us to run another round
dinno i still had the energy to sprint at the last 100m
cos i realli dun want everybody to suffer another round because of me
dammit
super duper chui
haha
den the debrief
she congratulated us for doing a good job for our run
and the "good news" is: we're going to time every sprinting round from now on
dat was her so called "good news"
from now on, i can never look forward to her "good news"

while im doing gym, i realised everyone started to push very hard
Liping, one of my teammates, is a smaller build girl than me
and she's doing 11kg of biceps
and 11kg of cling & jerk
and 7 slabs of bench press!
i was totally awed at how much stronger she has became
wad's more, is that her running has improved
she's realli damn incredible!
i was so embarrassed because im still stuck at 10kg of biceps and 11 kg of clean and jerk and 6 slabs of bench press
so dammit.
must improve more
push harder
for the next training

funny thing
after the training was lao yu sheng with the guys team
their lao yu sheng was so gross
they're literally throwing all the ingredients on you, and on to the floor
in the end, i get to eat the crackers onli.
haha. but i onli eat crackers, so it doesnt matter if they spilled the sashimi onto the floor
evil :)

anyway, happy chinese new year!
went to ah hee's hse yesterday
dun have any gambling luck man!
or should i say the banker, sylvia, is just too lucky
she keep getting ban luck, is that wad u say when you get 21 points?
anyway, yes. the notes beside her just keeps piling up
i guess she wont even notice if her money has been blown away by the wind
haha.
it's just too many lor.
even b4 i came in to play, her fortune had already amassed to 50+ 60 bucks le
super lucky lor, sylvia
for me, i just stopped when my net gain is zero.
couldnt take it anymore. sylvia keep getting 21, so we had to pay her double. dammit.
no money, no luck
sobs

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2007-01-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

damn sad abt yest's training.
super chui can! 12 rounds ard the track!
1st 3 rounds warming up, den sprint on alternate rounds.
my shoes chui already, so had to borrow from my aunt
addidas sia. but the shoelaces damn idiotic.
its those glossy glossy kind, not realli rough
so it keeps dropping and i have to keep re-tying it.
so damn hard to retie them, esp when my whole body is shaking
with my heart pounding so hard, and panting
anyway, ah hee had to cut short the cycle
we started the pattern of 2 rounds jog, 1 round sprint after 7th or 8th round
which i cant rem.
den i got better and i slowly catch up
by the time i got to the front, as in become the pacer, it was already the 2nd last round.
the last round was a sprint. cant sprint for the whole 400m man.
but i got quicken my pace a bit.
ran with my senior, suat wei.
she damn nice. keep encouraging me.
for the last 50m, we even hold hand and sprint all the way to the finishing line
nice feeling.

i think its the 6th round when the joint in my left shoulder started to hurt.
ah hee says its bcos i din relax my shoulder enough.
which i think is true cos the last few rounds, the pain was gone
probably cos i was relying on my body's momentum to run, whereby i started to swing my arms more to reming my legs to keep up with the rythm of my arms.
next time must swing more!
and must remind my body to follow the rythm of the swinging of my arms.

anyway, today's the last day of sch for this week.
attended my last seminar just now.
Advance Corporate Finance
sth like dat, which i cant rem
super boring and dry, when the doc was going thru the course outline
after that it got better, cos we went through the proper lesson
and started solving problem sums, whereby participation is encouraged

damn lucky. saw tung anh and neri in my finance class just now.
we din arrange to choose this module, but we ended up in the same class
so qiao3!
unlike kailing n me. we always try to choose the same class tgt
but onli a few times were successful.
cos i was proceeding with my minor in psy
so sometimes the timings clash
wadeva. at least i noe most of classmates.
except for my comm class. there's onli pei zhen (from cedar n mj 1st 3 mth)
dats all.
transferred to kailing's class today le. yippee!

nice to see so many familiar faces again!

dis fri going out with susanna, shuan & xin lei
they're my colleagues in sgh
nice pple
having dinner at a jap restaurant in great world. dun realli noe how to go dere
onli noe there's a shuttle bus at the mrt exit near capitol.

sat training, and after training going to seol garden
at amk!!! super far la.
4o gathering. we had it annually
but last yr din have, kind of like postponed to the beginning of this yr
after that have to go for yy's bdae party @ costa sands resort
busy busy

sunday off!
ah hee is super nice! he decided to let us off for sunday
but starting for next week, we cant have any more reasons to slack le
thurs night rowing is starting,
as well as sat & sun rowing.
ganbatte! i can do it!
time will fly past without you noticing it.
haha.

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2007-01-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

been really upset with my runs.
never seem to catch up.
previously i tot i can complete the 5k run to the 2nd bridge le
but it was all false hopes.
cos during the times when i managed to complete the runs, i was the pacer.
din realise i was actually slowing down the whole team when im in the lead
and i tot i actually improved a lot, so much so that i can catch up with the rest.
realli feel like crying.
den huiqi, my ex-cap, was behind me.
she kept saying negative comments to me.
like 'you're slowing down the whole right side' and stuff like dat.
super demoralising and miserable. i teared when i couldnt do it.
had to lag behind, and she ran in front of me, giving up on me.

dunno y i just cant seem to keep up with the rest.
they're super fast, yet most of them can stay tgt, except me.
i know i've improved, but i still have not reached their standards.
it makes me feel that im not improving at all.
damn sad.

but it's really heart warming
when some of my teammates found out that i was very sad after that run.
they msged me to ask me not to feel sad n things like that.
one of them even wrote me an email on that sat night
but i din manage to read my mails until just now.
she shared with me how she has endured and improved until the standard she had now.
was reali touched.
actually after the run, my seniors came to talk to me abt how to improve on my next run and things like dat.
was realli touched, but at the same time felt like i was a baby, making everyone to be worried abt me.

the next morning, sun, i met ah hee, my coach on the train to kallang.
was surprised when i see him there, on the platform
he came to talk to me
asked me abt my results, ask how's the training.
gave suggestions abt how to improve my land fitness and a little of his experience.
haha. it was hilarious, cos he was encouraging me, in a not so serious tone
but i just couldnt help tearing, plus its on the train. super diu1 lian3 k.
even now im tearing. dunno y. weird.

today ah hee ran with us. its so obvious that he was dere to support me.
to encourage me for the run.
really feel lousy of myself. like a cry baby, cant seem to grow up
and be strong, both physically and mentally.
i realli sucks.

i know im not panting, but my mind just couldnt control my body
to let it go faster, or even at a constant speed.
my legs just keep moving slower and slower, my steps are just narrower and narrower.
but still, after all the encouragement, ive decided to run 7x a wk.
i know its crazy, but i realli dun want to be a loser who just quits db, after all the efforts i've put in.
jia yous! (for myself)

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2006-12-29T13:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday i finally had a proper training
cos it's been raining cats and dogs these few days, so the first training ended up doing weights only.
kind of wasting my time, cos doing weights is rather boring.
but then, it kind of build up our muscles, after we stopped training for like 1 week, after our penang trip.

yesterday was the first time i ran until i almost vomitted out my breakfast.
before i realise, i was eating 2 pieces of bread in the morning.
so i had a bad premonition that i would get stiches or sth like dat.
but my expectations proved to be even worse.
i literally almost puke out my breakfast when i was just about to complete my 5 click run.
just around 50m away from my finishing line!!!
arggg.
din manage to complete my run again.
mayb tmr it will be better.
wanna challenge myself to complete the run!!!

checked my results yesterday evening when i returned home.
got 1A-, 1B+, 1B, 2B-.
i had A- for my math for finance!!!
rem the paper that i said 2 guys sitting beside me who sighed, after it was time to stop writing?!
yeah! that's the paper i did the best, so far.
now my gpa has risen by a bit,
but i still have a long way to go to reach my target of getting a 2nd lower honours degree.
still, i felt relieved that my results are improving,
even though i have such a hectic life, with trainings and homework to do.
i had B for investments, which i think is alright.
cos the book is super grossly disgusting. din even manage to complete revising the topics and i went for the exam le.
hehex. lucky! din get B-.
i've calculated le... must get B+ for every other subjects im taking for the rest of my 1.5 yrs in order to attain my target.
haiz. dunno whether i can make it though.
Ganbatte!!!

think having a cca is beneficial to me.
i guess i need sth to press me on, to remind me that time is precious
and i guess i've been fooling ard in my yr 1. din plan my target properly.
but still, realising it now is better than to realise it when im in yr 3.
by that time, everything would be too late!!!
guess im still lucky!
i wonder how kailing and the rest did. she din reply my msg when i told her how well i did.
worried***

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2006-12-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

Just came back from KL yesterday night, i mean today's morning
cos it was 12++ when i reached spore
went to Penang for race.
we got 2nd for women's open.

however, i was a bit sad cos my boat came in 4th.
there is a senior boat and a graduating boat, where the juniors are placed separately in the 2 boats
the better boat is the senior boat, while the lousier one is the graduating boats
i was with the graduating boat, with all the people who are either graduating or have graduated, so called 'lao rens'.
very sad that i still cant make it into the better boat.
haiz.
din realli have much talent in rowing i guess.

anyway, had fun racing in the sea, esp in other countries.
the sea is super choppy la
and the weather is super hot in the morning.
scorching, k
it was a great experience cos we need to apply different strokes as compared to when we were rowing in spore
calm water.

den went KL, Genting with some of my dragonboaters.
din realli enjoyed the trip cos KL was raining, and so was Genting
it was super misty can!
the outdoor theme park has to be closed due to the bad weather.
sad. spent most of our time doing nth, sitting ard, wondering where shall we go next.
KL food's super ex lor! 1 meal costs ard 7+ sing lor.
even the fast food set is cheaper than the kopitiam food.
dammit.
spend most of my money on transport, food and accomodation.
haiz. sad case.

den i also feel quite out of place when im with my teammates, esp with jolene.
i find that her presence is too strong. she kept talking with the rest, except me.
i think mostly because i hadn't really had a chance to be close to her.
during training, i was never paired up with her, and i din stay hall
so din realli meet up with her.
i felt like i was totally ignored by her lor.
but luckily i still have gek ling, who is the closest fren i made in DB.
always run and train tgt, by ourselves.
den she also quite open and talkative.
the rest are ok, but not that close
probably cos diff yr, and diff class
so dun realli have the chance to know each other well.
haiz. i think as long as gl is still in the team, i can have the reason to stay on.

today met up with kj, qh, sk & hoiman for dinner.
had a great fun talking and updating on each others' lives.
nice feeling.
we always end up in starbucks, talking and laughing away until 11+ before we go home
hehex. it's like a trend already.

today we saw Ms Lee Mei Kay!
she was in heerens, going to buy a cd.
i din recognise her until hoiman called out her name.
i think hoiman's voice was quite loud cos Ms Lee actually heard it and turn to us
she was also shocked when she sees us, cos we realli changed a lot
from wearing glasses, to not wearing glasses, from ugly hairstyle to nice and womanly hairstyle.
nice feeling to see an old acquaintance.
hehex.
must come out often k!

we'll be meeting again on 24th night at hoiman's place!
slping over!
yeah!

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2006-12-13T12:40:00.000+08:00

been super busy this hols!!!
training n training all day! 4 times a week. no kidding man.
had 2 mixed trainings with the guys.
super tiring lor!
they're super strong!
their every strokes is a like our scoops. super power, with all the waters splashing onto us.
n super tiring cos they're super fast.
shit man. dunno how to survive.
penang race is 500m, mixed
dunno whether i can survive for the full 500m man!
damn shitty.

last week's even worse.
tue training, wed to thurs training camp in sch.
our morning jog is 179 route. early in the morning at 7+ am. damn shitty.
especially the slope at the communications side + the common bus stop. super shitty.
but i've endured it. hehex.

recently the weather's been super f***ing idiotic.
scorching hot in the morning, when we're training,
and raining cats & dogs in the evening, when i've reached home.
yesterday ran 5km in the scorching hot morning, at 9am.
finally, i can complete the run without stopping, esp in the hot weather.
cos i was the pacer, hehex
so my speed is extremely slow, as compared to the seniors.
everyone likes my pace man!
i bet i'll be the pacer forever man, cos im always lagging behind
so it's impt for me to run in front so that the back pple can keep pushing me.

tmr we're setting out to penang!
after the penang trip, im going genting with a few of my teammates!
yeah! fun fun fun!
enjoying my hols finally!

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2006-11-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

sad. today is such a dammit day.
just completed my Math for Finance paper.
super difficult. I bet I could easily throw away 40 marks for not able to do 2 qns.
haha.
yeah. It's that bad.

Anyway, I had a super bad omen this morning.
Bit my tongue when I was just having my first bite of my breakfast.
dinno i was bleeding profusely, so i happily finished my bread and tea
onli to find that i keep drinking my blood, which is sweet, and.. i dunno how to describe
a bit slimy, a but not-too-sweet
so checked out in the mirror to find that the wound was quite bad.
went to eat ice, so that my wound can be frozen for a while.
smart of me.
hehex. but it's realli disgusting to see me puking blood out from my mouth.
for a short period of time, i was thinking whether my blood would just continue to flow out.
but lucky for me, the bleeding stopped, after a long time.

anyway, this is my little mishap in the early morning.
what's worse is in the evening when i went for my paper.
haha.
it was funny though, cos when the examiner announced that we should stop writing,
both guys beside me sighed.
almost at the same time.
super funny la!
so i also went sighing along with them. cute.
all of us knew we're super dead. haha.
when the examiners are collecting the ans booklet, everyone was glancing through the qn paper, and they go shaking their heads.
it was super funny cos everyone's actions are so unanimous.
i think we're super screwed up for this exam.
the past yr paper was much more easier lor, seriously.
no one expected this yr's paper to be such a killer.
haiz. but i guess everyone's almost the same.
so i sincerely hoped that they would moderate the grades so that i can get a really good grade!
i need to get at least a B+ in order to get a 2nd lower honours lor.
pls help me man!!!

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2006-11-12T18:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday was our river regatta race day
my team din get into the semi-finals
cos we screwed up in the race.
haiz.
din coordinated well with everyone.
but im not too sure abt that la.
cos i was the 2nd rower, so i had no idea how bad we were, except for the coaxier and the drummer
anyway, i tried to follow xiaoting, who is sitting in front of me, as much as i can le
tried to shadow her with all my efforts
but it was realli tiring when we're at the last 50m.
literally no energy to charge at the last part le.
hehex.

but the feedback from lisi- the coaxier, said that we didn't pull long enough, din exert enough force, wasn't coordinated at all
super lotsa problems
sad :(
haiz. i tot we're not bad already,
just that i find that the drummer's beat was not realli with us, esp the last 50m
cos she was beating her own timing, while we're rowing at our own pace
that was the onli thing that i've noticed throughout the race
anyway, l8r it rained
super heavy downpour
and everyone was wet, even though we're in the UOB building, near fullerton
cos the wind and gust was simply too strong that it blew the rain in.
super f***ing cold lor!
my lips were totally purple

anyway, the results from today's race was:
seniors got third
the other NTU team that we sent in din get into the finals.
budden, it's already very li hai for them to get into the semis le, unlike us
sad case.

this spells sth -- we've to train more, and coordinate more
seniors: you guys must trust each other, so no matter wad happens, you will still con't rowing regardless anything screwed up during the race
i guess we're still lacking of trust and strength
dunno when we can be strong enough to win sth
mayb after the penang trip, we'll b more bonded
as for strength, all we can do is to go for more OST
hopefully we can achieve sth by the end of the 1st yr, which is nxt yr's competitions.

oh! anyway, esther's bf, amos, from NP got 1st in the semi's!
which is super good la!
i guess the guys team would be having a tough time trying to win the victory over from them!
Amos! ur super good la!

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2006-11-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

been mugging like hell these few days...
it's literally from morning 10+ until night 11pm
plus lunch break, dinner, palace @ 7pm
after that from 11-12pm would be animation time!
shaman king ended lor.
but now they're showing the getbackers from 1130-12
11-1130 was inuyasha
nice! i like sseshoumaru, inuyasha's bro

super stressed nowadays, because i find that i dont have the time to revise my work
not revision, i mean, cos i've never touched the books b4!
hehe. been lagging since term starts because this sem has many commitments to dragonboat
and stupid projects, which take up most of my time.
now i still have 1 more investment test left.
sighs
y am i still taking test when the exams are near?
but nvm, since they're a motivation for me to touch the books
oh bother. 1 investment chapter (50 pages) took me 5 hrs to read and digest lor
wth. and im not sure whether everything that i've read has been committed to my limited memory
super disgusting.
psychology chapters also the same.
oh bother!

anyway, did some shopping for titbits today.
i knew i shouldnt indulge myself in shopping + titbits, which will make me fat,
but still, it's good to relax a bit.
hehe.
budden im having regrets, because i couldn't settle down after the shopping trip
been trying very hard to get back into the studying mood.
but i simply cant do it.

tmr im racing @ spore river
haiz. dunno whether can get into semi-finals
plus, the one sitting in front of me din even turn up for any of the OST
which means that she most probably wont last until the end of the race - 300m
we call her the NTU Spirit because sometimes u see her for training, sometimes u dun see her
this idea of naming her NTU Spirit comes from me of course!
and my inspiration is from the IVP jacket, which NTU gives to each sportsman
hehe.
my db fren, sara, is even worse lor.
she commented: hungry ghost festival is over le, how come some are still wandering ard
super mean right! but i like it
hehe. so typical of MY kind of fren. -beams

Oh! im not going to SMU for exchange prog le.
cos they din offer the course that im suppose to take in SMU.
although i can do part-time exchange, i dun think my chances are high
cos the course instructor said the selection is based on credentials
which means with a GPA of onli 2.975, i cant possibly be selected to go.
sad :(

anyway, must go to sleep soon. or else i wont have the energy to row tmr.
there was once i din had enough slp and was damn 'chuey' after training.
now i know how impt slp is for a sportsman.
shit.

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2006-10-20T15:15:00.000+08:00

finally... my presentation on tut qn for Investment is over.
haha...
yeah.. happi .. glad.. overwhelmed.

just taken my investment quiz online.
dinno how to do most of the qn!!!
scored by guessing.
haiz. of only the exam questions would be so easy.
scored 11/15 for the trial quiz and 12/15 for the actual.
was lucky cos i took it at the worst timing,
when my body is telling me to go to bed, although it is only 3pm in the afternoon.

my upcoming test is abnormal psy, next wed
prof said:
if you study lec notes, you'll only get C
if you study lec notes + textbook, most you can get is B
if you study things outside your textbook and lec notes, then you'll get an A..

haha. wad do you think i should do?
no matter wat, i'll never be able to completely grasp everything mentioned in the text
so i'll either get a C or a B.
give up man. should have SU the module. but too late.
haiz...
thinking of giving up psy man!
too diff to score and i have too little time to memorise all the stuff.

oh please save me.
needs lotsa rest.
n slp.

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2006-10-18T12:27:00.000+08:00

damn sucky these few days.
was burnt out.
everyday slp at 12++ and wake up at 7, 8+
just to study for upcoming tests.

today i just had a 'math for finance' test.
was preparing for countless nights just for the stupid half-an-hour test.
haiz.
but it was good because when i go through the notes,
I finally was able to figure out what my prof had been saying.
Of course, I was always half asleep during his seminar.
So, I didn't really understand my stuff.
Anyway, jia you!

By the end of this week, I have another test - Investment
Chap 1-9, excluding chapter 3.
So I had 8 chapters to go through.
It may seem little for you..
but mind you! each chap for investment is a minimum of 50 pages.
8 x 50 pages = 400 pages to cover!
haha.
my prof set the deadline at this sun, 11.55pm
haha.
so i still have time to chiong for it.
budden, no time cos this week i'll be presenting for investment tutorial.

haiz. sad life.
next week is the most important week...
abnormal psy test!!! i cant rem how many chapters i need to cover
but it's confirm a lot.
haha.
during my recess week, i've already tried to catch up.
so far, im only at chap 2. and that was the result after mugging for 1 week.
since then, i've never touched it for a single second.
wish me luck!!! haha

last week's water training was a disaster.
there was this person-WZ- sitting behind me.
she claimed that i splashed too much water on her, and she completely stopped rowing.
i realli dinno that i could splash water so well!!!
dat it actually can cause someone unable to continue rowing!!!
she's damn guo fen lorz.
make me feel as if i've committed some super undersirable sin!
idiot woman!

but to tell you the truth, nobody in the team likes her lorz.
she's always so sacarstic towards other people
n she always act as if she's the pro, the leader.
always telling us wad to do, how we should do it.
i hate her!!!!

and the worst thing is, our coach actually is on her side.
our coach is super sacarstic too lorz!
he always pinpoint the weaker people and side with the stronger people.
so bias!!!
developing -ve feelings for the coach, hate WZ.
dunno how long i can endure being in the team.
dammit.

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2006-10-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

moved house on thursday!!!
new hse is at blk 884 tampines street 83 #11-59 s520884
nice hse, but too faraway from the interchange.
4 bus stops away!!!

yesterday had training. damn sucky cos the coach identified a few of us as weaker rowers
im one of them.
budden im super confused cos one of the selected better ones was not realli actually dat good i think.
last time during the race, i was better than her lor.
ah hee selected me to sit in front of her. kinda wanting me to guide her along? i dunno
ah hee doesnt realli tell us why he do things
but we always knew he does things for a reason.
so was realli buffled.
anyway, i was the last he called to change boat.
u see, all the weak rowers r made to sit in the same boat, n the better ones were made to row with the seniors. so... yup
but it was fun in the end, cos we realli had fun, traning on our own, rather than with the seniors
cos the seniors' boat was realli siong. they rowed continuously for a very long time i guess.

den dis morning, woke up at 6am to send yanying off
she's going to australia to study
will be coming back in feb i think.
not too sure abt dat.

after dat went to shop for new wardrobe & ceiling fan
nice seeing all the cheap and nice wardrobes. beautiful.

budden i've not realli sat down and study.
thurs my investment test, chap 1-9.
each chap is abt 50 pages, so... hehe

god bless.

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2006-10-01T19:51:00.000+08:00

This yr's dragonboating race held by the breast cancer foundation was our virgin race.
yesterday we had a taste of the 500m race
and today it was 200m.
we came in 4th for the 500m event.
there was this super f***ing coxsair who fell into the boat.
so in the end, their boat totally swayed into our lane n we crashed.
fortunately, there was not much harm done bcos the collision wasn't very strong
In the end, we still went ahead with the race, after the accident.
hehe
yeah.
Ah Hee, our coach, says that we went more than 50m away from the starting point
so we can't re-race. had to cont rowing until the finishing point.
too bad :(

today was much better, for the heats onli
we were 2nd.
but i think we waited too long for the grand finals, that we weren't exactly energetic or high for the race.
we came in last! 5th position for the grand finals.
dammit.
Anyway, it was a great experience.
I feel that everyone is more tightly bonded after the races.

we're going for 'River Regatta' soon.
on the 11th & 12th of November, just days before my 1st paper starts.
hopefully i can survive this.
but, i just wanna say this: Racing is fun!!!
haha :) especially for beginners, bcos we need not worry too much.
din realli feel the pressure at all.
just need to give in our best and treat it as a training.

Must take note of my management of my time.
bcos the 'River Regatta' is super near to the exam dates.
so had to make sure i have sufficient time & energy to revise & study.
Am studying now. :D
but cant really concentrate cos realli too tired & shag.
jia you!
will always remember these words.

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2006-09-27T09:19:00.001+08:00

been super tired these few weeks
cos race is coming up this wkend!!! at spore river.
super excited n scared
we're participating in 200m & 500m.
yest's training tried the dist of 500m
realli feel like dying after dat.

anyway, been super tired after running.
we finally run to the 2nd bridge, which stretches from the kallang sea sports centre all the way to somewhere near the esplanade.
i think the dist was 5k?
im not so sure.
cos the dist to 1st bridge was ard 3km.
so i guess the dist to 2nd bridge is much more.

dammit. why do i have to keep in running.
got stiches yest.
n muscle pull on my left thigh.
dammit.
super xin ku!!!

but i still had fun. cos all of us were realli struggling to move the boat
realli feel like everyone's in the same boat.
haha.

the seniors r great!
esp cui mei & teddy & yy.
realli encouraging, even though my stich was realli painful n i realli dun think i can run back to the sea sports centre.
they kept pushing n encouraging me all the way.
super nice!
thanks.
luv ya.

this week's supposed to be my break
but i dun think im having any breaks at all!!!
i think im more busy dis wk le.
sat sun, seniors' SAVA race.
mon evening dragonboaters (men & women) had a bbq
tue thurs training
wed fri proj meeting
sat sun my race!
wow. cant imagine how i catch up on my sch work.
been trying to study abnormal psy
read thru 1st 2 chap onli
still have a lot more to go.
never touched my electives (psy + forensic) ever since sch starts.
***guilty
:D been trying to find the time & energy to catch up.
I can do it!! ***faith is a very impt issue in my life
my snrs kept telling me to have positive thoughts.
cos i always feel like dying b4 i started to do anything.
must change for e better man!
***faith***

niwae, that's all for my updates.
busy week sia.

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2006-08-26T20:01:00.000+08:00

damn shagged dis week...
been training n training n training.
i've just joined dragonboat.
haha.
crazy idea.
actually wanted to quit it cos too tiring le.
budden the good frens that i got to know in dragonboat super nice
n friendly
n they dun wanna quit
ask me to join with them..

wed: running up the slope.
from src to some dunno wad hall lorz.
all the way up there, then come down 200m like dat den up again
finally we end at the top of the long staircase, which is beside the pool
super high n steep stairs lorz.
can imagine we ran from level 1 to even higher up dere den end on top of the staircase???
wa liew
anw, im the last of the whole fleet
haha.
as usual.
their speed is super fast de lorz.. like 10+min run 2.4k

fri: ran slope again. but din have the reverse of 200m, just all the way to the start of the staircase
den gym work
wa liew.
did 10kg of lifting, 4 slabs of bench-lifting...
many many more.
las but not least, climbed the super high stairs 3 times!!!
realli wanna die le.

today: ran from kallang river to sheares bridge, which is 3km!!!
damn wanna die le.
last to complete too. haha. but still can sprint at the last part. dunno y gt the energy man!
the seniors all keep telling me to catch up to their pace.
damn qi kek la. cos realli no strength le!!!
after the run is sea-rowing. today we tried to lift our butts to row --> can stretch more forward
damn diff la. dunno how the seniors can survive this
dammit.

anw, will try to cont until they kick me out.
cos right now they say too many pple le. so must have selection
but dunno when they will kick us out.
so all my frens in dragonboat are like: train until they kick us out
haha.

persevere is the key to success.
dammit.
i hate running!!!

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2006-08-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

yep yep... sch started le.
finally after such a long time
budden, still can't quite get into the study mood.
havnt bought any textbooks yet
popular is always so full of pple.
dunno how my frens manage to get their books in the 1st place.

this sem im taking onli 17 AU.
dunno wad to take otherwise.
never seem to be able to clear my Pre-scribed AUs
geez. realli wanted to take up forensic science
budden, doesn't seem to have the luck to add it to dis sem.

anyway, went to a few lectures n seminars.
found out that so many pple are taking 2nd specialization la!!!
i have a seminar with more that 60 or 70% taking 2nd spec la.
we were suppose to give an intro on our course n interests.
super embarassed & stressed la.
cos im onli a bnf student, while others are like accountancy 2nd spec in bnf
or bnf 2nd spec biz law, mkting, HR.

by the way, finally joined a CCA --> dragon boat.
went for the introductory course last sat.
quite fun.
but a bit boring, i think.
mayb i onli experience the gist of the sport
dats y i felt it was an easy sport?
just train up urself, n jz row the boat with all ur might, but in a synchronised manner
n u can win.

training wise:
wed 6-8.30pm: rowing training by poolside -- to train rowing technique
fri 6-8.30pm: gym
sat 9-12pm: water training

at first i thought we're going to train the whole day
cos last time sailing also like dat
bt sailing's worse -- 5X a week
mon: PT 2 hours
wed: water training 1/2 day
fri: gym 2 hrs
sat & sun: water training whole day
tue & thu: P.E.
woah. dat time it's realli exercising 7 day a week!!!
haha. realli dunno how i survived back then.

well, since i chose to join dragon boat,
wasn't realli keen on getting strong n bulky n big,
but more interested in getting tanned again.
darker skin tone seem healthier i think.
right now i realli look like some sick ghost la.
haha. super pale.

anyway, got to know great frens during the introductory course to db (dragonboat).
realised one of them is my senior. my true senior cos she was from 4O too!!! from cedar
but she's 22, daT means she's 2 batches b4 me.
so qiao!
her name's Aishah, a malay taking chinese major in NTU!!!
1st malay taking chinese major le.
was even reported in the newspaper.
her mother's a chinese, that's why she can speak n understand chinese.
super cool right!!!

haha. great to have fun while you can.
realli cant imagine how monotonous my life would be after i start working in 2 yrs' time.
sianz...

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2006-08-10T11:07:00.000+08:00

damn kool this national day!!!
went to national stadium with hoiman yest
had great fun!!!
singing, cheering n gossipping abt MPs
haha.

i like this year's song sang by kaira!
super nice.
she doesn't have any funny accents
i like.
the show was nice
but too short i think.

1 disturbing thing i found:
almost couldn't remember how to sing the national anthem.
shocked when hoiman says she stopped singing national anthem since primary school
cos she always mouth it out onli, instead of singing.
luckily i still remembered the pledge.

1 disappointing thing: im sitting around aunties during the NDP.
they dunno how to sing all the national day songs, anthem n pledge.
so i feel we're lucky to receive education
feel damn pround to be a singaporeean at that instant.

oh i also saw president nadan right before my eyes.
nv seen him in real life before.
he was such a cute old n plump old man
haha.
cos he's supposed to be accompanied by the seargents n pple. so he's kindof covered by them
haha.
onli when he stood on the jeep and rounded the whole stadium, then do i see him
haha.
cute old man.

then there were the fireworks!!!
super nice!!!
budden always feel things flying around.
dinno the pple sitting nearest to the fireworks display had to carry umbrellas
they were given transparent umbrellas lorz. u noe those kind made of just plastic ones.
super nice.
then there were the pieces of shiny shredded colour papers flying towards us.
super nice.

oh. another sad things was the fighter jets.
as u can see, my camera can shoot very well for clear things (12 megapixels)
budden it's not super fast in saving n capturing things.
so, i missed all the photos of the fighter jets!!!
luckily i took the helicopter with the super gigantic national flag
n the skydivers!!!

nice day i spent on national day.
hopefully i still get the chance to go next year!!

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2006-08-01T12:29:00.000+08:00

yest went to cut hair.
in the end, the hair stylist (named Alex) recommended a 'nice hairdo'
he said it suits me.
n it's kawaii.
so i did it, trusting him

was nice at first when i saw what he did to my hair
bt after he cut my fringe, thinking that it might be a hassle for me to keep long fringe since im still schooling,
my hairstyle totally ruins.
bcome super japanese.
behind my ear were all permed up,
those infront of ear were rebonded.

haha...
still have 1 wk b4 sch starts.
pls let my hair bcome nice..
if not i m go rebond it le..
dioaz.

informed esther, wenting, wensi n irene yest after the whole treatment was done.
been sitting in the salon from 130pm to 6pm.
damn tired.
dinno it would took so long. regretted.
haiz.
today meeting up with esther.
din realli wanna go out with the super freaky hairstyle i've gt now.
haha.
should i jz cancell all outings for this wk??
shld i???
haha.

hell for me.

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2006-07-30T08:48:00.000+08:00

so good...
finally it's break time for me...
ended my work on 28.7.06
my boss treated me to some japanese restaurant on 27/7.
the sashimi was sugoi!!!
v fresh n gd.

normally when we eat salmon sashimi,
i'll not feel any sweet taste after i swallowed it.
bt the sashimi at that restaurant was diff!!!
super nice, tender n sweet.
tried swordfish meat too.
super sweet n nice.
nxt time mz eat it again.
the restaurant is at queen st, near waterloo st (bugis area)

my colleagues also gave me many things on last friday.
sister thanam gave me a pouch
hamidah n ah seng gave me a painting, which was painted on ceramics
mr yeo (boss), susanna, shuan, kok liang, & adeline gave me a huggable bear
the flowers the bear was holding looks super real lorz! nice
mr loke gave us chocolates
susanna gave me a recordable bear the last time when we told her that we're leaving on last friday.
sweet.

budden, we (kailing n I) also returned our thanks.
we treated them canadian pizza (cos 1 for 1)
we're super broke la..
seem as though the last day was free
cos all our pay went into that treat.
we ordered 2 XL n 1 reg pizzas
which means that we had 4 XL n 2 Reg pizzas in return
costs each of us 40+ dollars

nv tried canadian pizza b4.
bt it was great!!!
had lotsa flavours to choose from
n the taste is fine.
i like.
budden the onli 1 bad thing abt it is: it's not as cheezy as pizza hut's
bt the ingredients n everythings was in huge amts.
practically the whole pizza was covered with ingredients.
super worth it.

yest 29/7 went to bugis area with kai juan n hoiman.
shopping! great.
wanted to go to this fles market near SMU.
it's at Armenian St.
it's a small place (we onli found out when we reached there)
the flea mkt is inside a pub lorz.
the pub had some wooden platform beside the cafeteria (is it called like that? i mean the eating place, wadeva)
so the flea mkt was held there.
bought 1 DCP pink chirt which costs $6 n painted a tattoo on my ankle for $6.

the tatto was the best things i had from the flea mkt lorz..
super nice.
mayb nxt time i shld go get a real tattoo, either on my ankle, or at the back of my neck, or near my thumb area.
i think having tatoos at these areas are nice!
oh! i can have it near the waist, on my back too
super nice...
haha...
bt i super scared of the pain..
yanqi had 1. when she went to get it that time, she was crying like hell (i mean almost)
haha.
bt i think i can handle the pain
cos i think im not so scared of needles n everything.
anyone wanna join me?
hehe.
dunno y my blog cant put up pic
always upload le den nxt time when i look at it, the pics are all gone.
haiz.
if not can show ya all my cool tattoo.
ok. why not we find some time to go out tgt (i mean my friends of course)
bt we mz meet up within 1 wk
cos the person says e tattoo can onli lasts for 1 wk or so, if you take normal care of it.

lets meet up my friends, fast

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2006-07-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to bugis with hoiman
damn nice
haha...
it's been a long time since i catch up things with her.

been complaining to her abt kailing..
abt her wrong attitudes and all.
woah.
dinno she worse than me...
when i told her all abt kailing,
she literally said she'll jz sack her if she was my boss..
haha..
cool.
great that somebody actually stands on my side..

anyway, what wensi taught me doesn't realli work on her.
been telling her things over n over again.
bt still...
she doesn't get it.
until now, she still cant stamp the correct chop, or the correct side, or even the correct date
even though i've been telling her to check over n over again..
tell me wad am i gonna do...

i noe she's super disadvantaged,
esp when she goes out to work,
not as a temp but as a permanent employee.
she's gg to suffer.
bt i dun realli wanna keep repeating myself n getting annoyed by her same mistakes over n over again.
it makes me seem as though im pinpointing against her, n not her work.
realli dunno wad i shld do with her, n her attitude.
she's always that "I'm only a temp!" attitude is super disturbing for me.
i mean, ur hired to do things.
even if ur hired for only a short period of time, u shld no matter wad complete ur task with ur hearts out.
i think it's a person's responsibility to do things correctly if ur hired for doing so.
furthermore, ur paid to do so.
i realli dun understand her "temp staff" onli thinking..

niwae, been realli glad to b able to shop ard.
looking at things n pple.
looking at how the world is still turning even though ur stuck with some realli deep shit trouble can realli make one feel that their problem is nth.
u can realli feel that everyone's facing some kind of trouble somewhere, sometime.
but everyone is still living, still carrying on walking until they reach their next destination.
i realli feel that im so small as compared to the world such that my problems are small too.
i'll console myself by thinking that there's always such pple like kailing out there,
pple who do not take their responsibility seriously.
jz living day by day, hoping jz to have some money in their pockets to fill up their stomachs for the nxt meal.
mayb worse,
there mayb many worse pple out there who jz loves to attack you n not cooperate with u.

but no matter wad, i jz wish everything will end soon.
2 more weeks n the work is over.
i sincerely pray for it to arrive soon.

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2006-07-08T19:00:00.000+08:00

Finally, Susanna's back
she's the person who's on maternity leave, whom im replacing ever since start of holiday
she's super nice n good lorz...

budden still not going well in work.
cos too many things to do.
sus's doing mr yeo's (my boss) job
im mostly doing Sis Jaro & Sis Lua's job.

super busy
been OT-ing since last week
n the kailing thought i LOVE to work OT.
she thought i really needed the money badly.
wth.
its because she cant assist me in doing my job
so i had to stay back to complete it.
kailing: so sian!!! like nothing to do like that.
me: huh... i damn stress lorz.. so many things to do.
kailing: mayb nxt time can teach me how to do all these
me: ok

den.. teach those simple things like copying namelist
she also cant do
me: kailing, today's OT claims have not been sent out, so u shld cont with the list and not treat it as though u sent it on another day.
kailing: ok. dinno abt that.

another thing.. she cant seem to be able to understand wad im saying,
even though i've repeated it upteen times.
me: kailing, as i've said, you onli need to open Mr Yeo's letters bt not the rest
kailing: oh ok.
her ans is so plain that anyone would have mistaken that it's her 1st time clearing the mails.

and there's another things which im more upset abt.
she actually opened mails containing cheques and jz left it on pple's table.
wth.
itz cheques lorz.
anybody who comes in can jz take n go.
i realli dun understand why doesn't she has any sense of 'DANGER' by putting cheques blatantly on the desk.

woah. like that also dunno. realli dunno wad to do.
cant realli let her handle big stuffs
cos later i may kena.
if she told other pple i teach her like dat.
if not, she may say "I ASSUME...." die.
itz better i do all those work that are delegated to me n me onli.
she'll jz have to help sus ans Mr Yeo's calls n dats it.

damn scared of her 'ASSUMPTIONS'
may make me get into deep trouble.
haiz.
tough working
but hanging on dere
cos i've decided to quit on the 28th july.
gg to let boss know nxt mon.
n i'll hav exactly 1 wk's holiday b4 sch reopens!!!
hip hip hurray.
beter start boking my schedule,
like meeting up with frens n having fun tgt.

-end-

2006-06-25T10:26:00.000+08:00

the last night been thinking abt everything.
mayb i shld realli find some time to talk to kailing.
abt how i shld communicate to her.
i mean there mz be sth wrong with both of us.
either my instructions were unclear
or she realli has some super imaginative mind
which makes her always assumes this n that.

have to devise a plan abt how to communicate her.
like how i usually will inform her of things that she need to do.
think mz do like wad wensi advised.
shouldnt let her cut into my words easily
or else i'll never get to bring my words across to her, smoothly, n without any ASSUMPTIONS.

also, like esther said, try to bring the message across to her with a smile.
think she finds my 'No' expression fierce n impatient
so will give he less of that.
budden, come to think of it,
if i remained firm in finishing my words b4 letting her raise qns,
def i can give her less of the 'No' expression,
cos i believe after listening to the whole stoy b4 processing wad to ask would def reduce the no. of WRONG qns.

den like dat also can make her feel less terrified of me.
cos she has already finds me impatient
so she doesnt feel the ease of asking me even when she's in doubt
so always ASSUMES.
will try to change.
definitely.
we're not onli gg to face each other at work, right now,
we're also gg to be classmates in sch
n that would be another 2 yrs.
after i graduate, may also be working tgt.
n that will be many yrs down the road, thatwe're gg to spend our time tgt lor.
hav to make sure we do not find each other unbearable.
if not our friendship will not sustain for long.

kailing's a v gd fren
she's funny, n v nice tempered.
dats y when we talk things out, she said she understand the stress that im facing,
esp when she cant learn new things fast
n i hav so many stats to do.
so she told me she has been bearing with me, esp when i keep giving her the 'No' look, which makes her feel afraid to ask me.
if not she thinks we would quarrel everyday.

after i heard that from her,
iwas like... WOW.
dinno i was so unbearable n she' so uncomfortable working with me.
had to do sth fast.
mayb on Mon, i promise.
will talk things out with her, in as nice a tone as i can be.

bless me.

2006-06-24T17:34:00.000+08:00

damn sad abt working
cos gt many probs.

1st of all,
my colleague-cum-ntu fren, kailing, always hav communication errors with me.
she always cant understand wad im saying.
cos she realli cant absorb info fast enough.
even she herself admit dat she cant realli learn v.fast
so ok
nvm
explain slowly.

but this time, she can process faster.
once she has queries or doubts, she'll imediately ask, cutting my instructions.
but u noe, some things mz listen to the whole story b4 u realli understand wad it's all abt.
so, most of her qns are wrong.
as in she'll say sth like "oh! izzit like dis or that?"
which is of course wrong!!!
so i'll give her my 'No' look.
dunno whether im realli fierce or impatient or is her definition of 'fierce' & 'impatient' is super shallow.
so, anyway, she finds me 'fierce' and 'impatient'
wadeva.

and the worst thing is......
she actually push all the blame to me n told other pple that I TOLD HER TO DO THIS!
then when i clarify with her, den she tell me she ASSUMES itz like dat cos once again, comm error.
me: den y dun u ask me 1st?
kailing: cos u seem v busy n stress
me: dotx.

im not the onli one who has comm errors with her lorz.
even adults like those sisters n executives talking to her she also dun quite understand them

for instance, Sis Jaro was asking her to help her key in some info using excel.
Sis Jaro said she'll email kailing the template for her to key in
then she approach me to help her check whether kailing enters the info correctly.
and then!!! Kailing ASSUMES Sis Jaro is gg to email me the soft copy den im suppose to forward the mail to her for her to key in.
wth.

you noe how i found out that she din understand the instruction?
cos after Sis Jaro left, kailing came to ask me

kailing: so is Sis Jaro gg to email you the template?
me: i thought she said she's going to email u (kailing) the template? my job is onli to check whether you keyed in correctly or not.
kailing: oh... i ASSUME she's gonna email u the file cos she went to talk to you.
me: huh? u mean you din understand wad she said to you?
kailing: yes, cos she was talking too fast. cant catch her accent
me: den y dun u ask her to repeat?
kailing: no chance. ai yah, you noe wad to do can le.

super freaking annoying.
dunno y. she always give that kind of reason like e person talking super fast
or she cant catch their accent
or she cant find the chance to raise her qns.

itz not that i do not face such probs lorz.
i've talked to pple who mumbles all e way throughout the conversation
n sometimes i admit i cant understand wad they're saying.
BUT at least i always have the chance to get them repeat their words.
dunno whether im super gd in finding chances to ask pple to repeat themselves or izzit kailing's super lousy at communicating with others.
i realli dunno n dun understand her 'problem'.

furthermore, her work attitude is so diff from mine lorz.
when pple pass things to me, i'll always double check n everything
but she doesnt
so when she kena trouble like things get lost den she panicked n asked me for help.
i mean pple approached her n i dun even noe wad thing they pass to her.
how to help???

den ask her to stamp the "received" chop she also stamp wrongly.
she stamped upside down.
after that she came to confess to me.

kailing: hey, sorry i made the mistake
me: don't you check which side you're stamping b4 you stamp on the doc?
kailing: never. but i liquid away the wrong one n stamped the right side le. never mind 1 izzit?
if you were me, wad can u say...
she already made the mistake. wad can i do.
i can juz sigh.
even better. When she heard me sigh, she'll ask, "wad happen? you v stress ah?"
haha.
wad can i say???

2006-06-10T14:34:00.000+08:00

yez went town to celebrate Irene's bdae.
feeling gd,
bt too tired.
yeah...
had rough patches at work.

been trying to teach kailing how to do her work
n how to pick up calls.
been quite frustrated with the copier machine
cos gg to spoil.
the contract ending in end of june
dats y now itz kinda sort sort.
keep jamming all the papers.
on top of that,
have to teach kailing how to handle calls n everything.
super vexing!!!
cos kailing keep taking down half of the messages onli.
n she doesnt seem to be able to understand what the other party is saying.
it happen all the time.
even when other pple were talking directly to her, she also dun catch what they meant.
haha.
comical, you would find, if you're feeling good
bt boiling you'd feel, when you have so many things to do n you still mz 'take care' of her.

however, she's slowly picking it up.
sometimes its so slow that you realli wanna strangle her
cos you jz hav to keep repeating yourself every now n then.
and then she would apologise n laugh it off when she admit that she's kinda slow in picking up new things.
i mean, she has apologise n admit her mistake
i cant possibly jz vent my frustration on her when she makes mistakes again n again.
haiz.

niwae, realli hope things gonna be better.

as for irene's bdae, we had dinner at nydc @ wheelock
den had gelare ice cream @ PS
n den home.
we gave her a box. you know, those kind of kiddy things you play when you're small
u need to put money in and then u turn it
n some toys in a round plastic ball will roll out.
super koo!!!
oh. n i bought myself a pair of new shoes
for work actualli
not those kind which i'll wear when i go out.
super yucky
bt too bad, my work needs it.
haiz.
spent quite a lot on yez's outing.
mz save save le.

2006-05-28T10:56:00.000+08:00

it's been such a long time since i ever wrote an entry.
no choice
cos busy making money...
right now working in SGH as a temp, replacing sr. admin assistant
super lotsa things to do la!
cos the person im replacing temporarily is SR. Admin Assistant.
diaoz.

somemore we r temp staff
so everybody keep asking us to do those easy, yet time consuming jobs for them.
haiz.
in the end, we r always kept busy, not bcos of my real job,
but because of other pples' business.
sad :(

been working over dere for a month le.
time flies.
my colleague, another temp staff replacing the SR. Admin assistant
(ya noe, her job is damn too much so need 2 to replace her)
is leaving
her name's Goh Xin Lei, and she said she's my junior, from Meridian
which i cant rem seeing such girl b4.
anyway, she also din recognises me.

haha... she told me she knows abt our group, as in the 9Haz
but she onli recognises the key fig, like yanqi n wensi.
yupz. guess the rest are not-so-impt-pple
hey hey. jz kidding.
budden, itz oki with me. i've always been a not-so-popular-girl
regardless of where i am now.
but i seriously think im a super loner now, in NTU
except with a few gd frens
they are nice la, budden all we can talk is abt sch work
topics which r outside of sch are hardly visited.
yupz. that's my sad life.
still, my cedar frens are better.

though i couldn't meet up with them so often,
bt when we really get together,
the feeling is awesome.
we feel as if we can talk until the end of time.
hehe.
so dramatic but it's true.
there are no feelings that our relationship has dampened by the lost in touch.

it's not that frens from jc r not as gd,
bt we often meet up npw and den,
it's not surprising that our relationship is still intact, and still following up on pple.
it's jz that things r harder if we do not meet up so often,
n my cedar classmates n i made it.
it's like we onli meet up once a yr, yet we still feel that we're bonded together.
ya noe?!

nice feeling to noe that i still hav my frens ard me,
to help me brace thru the difficulties and the loneliness i felt in NTU.
thanks.
a tribute for all.

-end-

2006-05-14T11:13:00.000+08:00

been quite a while since i ever enjoyed myself.
went out with siew kia on mon night
to town!
haha.
after work, n she, after sch

went to din tai fung to have dinner
quite nice
i had a bowl of mushrooms noodle.
1st time i ate in din tai fung
bt e food over dere quite limited le..

after dat went to shop for valerie tock's bdae present
she wanted a crumbler laptop bag.
went to paragon to check out the price.
bt realised they do not hav stock.
onli left e display set.

e shopkeeper told us to go wheelock to find
dinno wheelock still hav another branch
bt they closes at 845 i think.
cant rem.
i onli rem they closes super early!!!
ran + quick walk to wheelock from paragon!!!
do ya noe how far it is?
within 10-15 mins time?!

haha.
been a long time since i ever exercised.
so had a great day dat day.
we managed to get dere on time!!!
e shopkeepers super funny
cos they keep making fun of e 1 n onli half guy dere
cos he's quite sissy. ya noe..
n he's super nice to our ms Lim Siew Kia
so they keep laughing at him.

after dat went mos to hav a drink n talk
nice.
like small n intimate talks
after dat went home.
wad a fulfilled day i had
within jz hours.
hehe.
mz go out for such trips again!
soon.

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2006-04-29T18:19:00.000+08:00

damn tired...
working's even worse than studying.
730am - 8+ to 9+

1st time i did OT, it was until 945pm like dat.
wow!!!
16 hours of work
left 8hr to slp
can u imagine how hard it is???
haiz.

niwae, im getting more into e situation le..
begin to know what to do, how to do things
n how things are like over at my workplace.
beginning to understand my boss's temper.
n what to say to him
cos im not e girl who can jz laugh things off n forget abt it
i'll rem it by heart, n remind myself not to say those unprofessional words again

sad...
budden, think im improving a lot with regards to my relationship with my colleagues
very fast.
cos i've onli started working with them 3 days officially
great improvement for mi
n am quite satisfied. budden still need to improve until i can realli fit into the community.
jia you!!!

at first, i dun even dare to say anything
cos i dunno them n dunno wad to say to them..
bt now itz oki
though derez still a lot of room for improvement.
haha...

-end-

2006-04-25T13:53:00.000+08:00

today damn happi
last paper finalli!!!
haha...
can enjoy life for 3 whole months le!

was shocked today
cos so many qns for the psy paper
dammit la
super diff
nearly e whole book was tested...
nth was left out
damn shitty
in the end, dunno wad to write la...
cos all mz interpret e graphs n results of the studies

sounds easy bt u still hav ti link with wad u've learnt
to account for the difference u observed in e results
damn diff la
nearly killed mi...

mcq 30% onli for 30 qns
section b 2 qn 30marks
section C all case studies 40 marks

no time to complete the paper
dAMnshitty
yucks
lousy teacher
lousy paper
hate it

b4 entering into the examination hall
heard sb talking abt his 1st paper was today
shoc-k-ed.
i nearly fainted...
how come e difference so big
today my examinations ended, while others jz started
shitty time table scheduler...

poor guy...
still gt so many days to suffer.
while im on hols le
gd luck to dat poor soul
haha...
bt i bet he can defintely get better grades dan mi lorz
given so much time to study n prepare

yez i jz started reading psy notes.
notes onli. yes. no textbook.
damn busy for e past wk. and slacking. shoppong. tv. slping
dats y can onli study for psy yez.
was happy dat i managed to answer some of the qns, given dat i've onli studied it for 1 day
haha...
din realli had much hope for dis paper
budden. lucky mi. cos derez no min grade for dis paper to minor psy.
yippeee... hope the other psy papers r much more interesting n easier.

-end-

2006-04-22T18:48:00.000+08:00

seriously i dun think i'll pass for this sem la..
i've been super slack la!!!
kill mi pls
y am i on hols mood, even though exams r not over yet.
can sb pls knock some sense into mi???
haha...

how i wish to go on hols...
boo hoo hoo...
starting work 1 day after my papers end..
bleah.
budden working is better dan studying, i think
haha
at least dun need to crack my brain to think of stupid, super diff qns
jz need to do repetitive work day in day out

haha... make my work sound so "interesting"
haha
budden quite oki...
im super fast at work lorz!!!
cos itz realli sianz...
dats y gt so much time to complete my work fast.
luck mi
y another colleague leaving in may
cos she dun wanna work until sch starts...
wanna take some time off for herself
so good!!!

whereas im still stuck with the job for 3 whole mths!!!
duh...

e person whom im gg to replace during my hols gave birth le!!!
she gave birth on the 11th april
super nice!
we're gg to buy gifts for her soon
bt sb asked her what does she like for her present
n she replied: "money"
dotx...
so e whole grp of us were like laughing at her la...
nice
they're super lame pple lorz!!!
esp my boss, e admin manager
cant stand t, esp when e office is like antartica
wanna kill mi izzit!!!
no la...
v nice pple.
no temper at all.
or mayb i dinno them well?
haha.

nice working with my colleagues.
nice to know y exams ending soon
nice to noe im gg to be dead soon
hehex.

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2006-04-20T15:49:00.000+08:00

today damn happy. 3papers down, 2 more to go
hehex.
mon n tue.

budden also quite bad.
cos i did wrongly for qn 4a.
interest expense should b (cost of debt) x (debt)
i think i brain dead.
use (cost of debt) x (EBIT)
damn bloody
no wonder i cant prove for e given WACC.
shit
den still gt another mcq
shld b signaling theory, bt i put bird-in-the-hand theory

2 qn dieded.
4a worth 5marks, mcq worth 2marks
bless me with at least a B can???

havnt gt e mood to study for stats n psy,
when itz 3 days n 4 daYs away respectively.
tmr still gotta work, sat gt tuition
dunno how to scrape thru.
anyone can teach mi?

still figuring how to scrape thru my last 2 papers...
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2006-04-17T14:10:00.000+08:00

today damn shitty.
acct exam
last night still deliberately asked my aunt how to do cash flow statement.
tot i can do well when they come up cash flow
bt in e end, they din come up much.
diaoz.
wad a joke to make.

budden i think e rest can pass ba.
last qn's weightage 32%.
hopefulle, i can do well for most of e other qns.
at least can get 60++ ba.
i hope.
sincerely pray for it to happen

sat went to study with wenting.
budden we shop more than we studied.
ate lunch tgt den discussed a bit, den dun feel like studying le
hehex.

after dat serious studying with kailing n alina
gd to study with them.
they're so clever lorz.
seems like they know everything.
'a' level dat time also study with yan n shi
dats y can pass
haha.
like to b with clever pple.

den sun went expo sale!!!
with sis
hehe.
she so suaku!!!
1st time go for sale in expo.
in e end, she did mire shopping than mi lorz!!!
she'll go like dis bra so cute!
dis panties r so cute!!!
everything's cute in her eyes
haha

yupz yupz.
confirm die man dis april
haha.
totally no mood to study at all.
jz feel like slacking.
can u imagine?
ive started watching those china shows on ch 8 at 4+ 5pm!!!
instead of studying!!!
haha.
dats mi.
n my way of running away from reality.
nice

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2006-04-12T18:56:00.000+08:00

todaY damn bored.
cos v slack
tmr 1st day of exam
den thu mon thu mon tue exams
haiz..
sad.
so fast
budden, faster better
cos more time to enjoy hols!!!

after exams mz officially start to work le.
dun think hav time to play.
boo hoo hoo
at e very least, i can watch tv everyday n slack as much as i like after work
hehex.
gd
luv it!!!

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2006-04-08T15:27:00.000+08:00

damn shitty!!!
so many things to study
yet so little time
esp for my ge
which is on e last day, e day after my core paper

been working hard, working not studying
yes.
yez had to work in sgh
830-530pm
hadn't had time to touch on any topics yet
by e time i reach home, quite late

today no tuition cos sam gt extra lesson n cca
gd for mi
if nt i sure die
of fatigue
haha.
jz kidding..
im strong!!!
yippee!
cant wait for exams to b over

nxt fri is gd friday!!
damn gd
no need to work
hehe.
gt more time to slack.
great.
lurve hols
wish i could hav more of such not-much-to-do hols
hehe

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2006-04-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

yez celebrate wenting's bdae
had dinner @ tanglin mall
super faraway from town lorz
we walked dere somemore
dammit.

at 1st dunno go where to eat
bt l8r found dis noodle bistro which serevs jap, vietnamese food
super gd
n serving super big

sand bdae song on e road
super malu
bt gt some stupid malay guys behind us joined us too
damn idiotic la

today had presentation
went smoothly n nice
super fun n creative for some of e grps
had a great laugh
after dat tuan anh treated us to pastry @ e Quad
to celebrate e end of ob presentation
super nice can!
go! grp leader!

tmr comm quiz
havnt study anything yet
bt i dun think need to study at all
haha
can skim thru

ob tutor announces he's gg to treat us again!!!
thus, 5/5 for his evaluation
haha
kidding
we're nt so practical
hehex
nice!
like gd n nice frens in ntu
hate lousy system of pushing everything to e end of sem
sucks!

-end-

2006-04-02T15:34:00.000+08:00

super tired dis wkend k!
yez had stats meeting @ bedok library
7+ woke up to wash up to come to bedok all e way from kampung boon lay can!
den went to teach tuition half way thru'
travel to yishun from bedok
den bedok to home
5+ den eat lunch
cos was late at 1st
din get to eat at all until i got home

so coincidently, i met kj @ yishun interchange
she was on her way to an interview @ a tuition centre
bt after dat she told mi dere was dis guy who was e in charge of dat place, din seem so nice
she was succesfully acceoted but she's having second thoughts abt it now
somemore itz yishun...
n she lives in ubi, more accurately, itz jalan tenaga, opp ubi
haha
need to take 1h ++ to reach yishun le..
jz like mi

niwae, after i had my lunch, went back to bedok library to finish wads undone
haiz
e stats proj
stayed dere until 830 den gt it done
super nice feeling
for getting diff things done!
haha.

nice. nxt wk my last wk of e semester le..
super duper fast la
freaking
exam coming soon..
havnt touch anything yet.
scary
mz pray more so that i wun flunk my exams
cos dis sem is f__ing tough.
*cross my fingers
hehex

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2006-03-27T18:01:00.000+08:00

updates!!!

today had psy presentation on Peterson's task
damn funny
cos guanhao argued with teacher.
he jz cant shut his mouth up la
cos prof v chauvinistic.
dun like pple to argue back

e 1st group spent >45min presenting their slides lorz!!!
cos 1 of them kept arguing back.
our grp damn gd.
always nv say anything.
"any qns?" we'll ans "no"
hehex

Wednesday
0830: fm quiz, chap 1 to 13!!! bloddy hell
1630: ob report due
finishing soon
presentation nxt wk

Thursday
1030: communication presentation
suppose to pick 1 photo dat we think depicts spore
n y we think itz significant to spore, or sth like dat
haha.
cant rem

Friday
0830: working at sgh
super tired n many things to rem n do la
cos i'll b replacing the senior secretary who'll b on maternity leave by the time i start working officially
so hav to work once a week so i'll b prepared to cover her job when i come in
terrible
hav to pon lec on fri
last wk also like dat
bt oki la
cos colleagues v nice n friendly

dats all!!!

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2006-03-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

busy busy wkend k
sat discussing stats proj
sun filming whole day in sch

yes... filming
for ob presentation
topic: romance @ workplace
gg to film in e past how employees court each other
location: nanyang lake
can u imagine e stupid old scenario?
lovers running to hug each other???
haha

nxt scene: modern times
employer n PA relationship
kena discovered by wife
wife complain to BOD
woahaha..
so interesting!

den mon mz hand in research psy report cum presentation
so wkend mz do compiling n editing

im also e one doing editing for ob
wad a coincidence
do i look like sb who is v level-headed? noe wads gg on when i keep skipping lec n ponning tut?
kk
nvm

yupz..
super busy wkend
super busy mi

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2006-03-21T16:34:00.000+08:00

oops! forgot!
14 march is my bdae!!!
sad
turning into 20's so soon
haiz

had fun dat day
in e morning gt accounting presentation
everything went v smoothly!
great.
prof has not much comment abt mi
onli said my pace n voice is alright

after dat went to watch nanny mcfee with wensi
we're on a secret date!
haha..

followed after dat is dinner at bugis
we had western cuisine in a hotel's restaurant.
had fish & chips
v nice.. v. tender
n they serve baked potato
instead of french fries
super nice!!!
haha...

they gave mi many gifts
those included a pot of cactus! yes. u din read wrongly
a flower, many letters
irene gave mi a a belt cum necklace cum bracelet
bt i still cant fig out to use it to go with my clothings
haha.
sorry

den on sat i went out with cedar frens!!!
to town
kbox at 12pm, actually is 11am but all of us r late
den talk n talk outside far east plaza, at bk
den ate at sakura restaurant in far east
after dat went cine, yoshinoya to chat again

itz realli nice n comfy
cos itz been a v long time since we see each other e last time
so chatted for quite a long no. of hours
oh!
n most of my frens considering gg to uni!
den chatted a lot on uni life
n how it was so lonely n stuff
yupz.

had great fun
for bdae.

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2006-03-21T16:28:00.000+08:00

itz been a long time since i ever had a decent break
haha
been giving myself break la
skipping lec n ponning tut
so dat i can slp more
n hav more of my studying time

hey hey..
but dat doesnt mean i din do my tut k!
i use all e suppose-to-b-lec time to do my tut n study
i can say im quite efficient like dat le
cos wun b so tired,
esp when i hav morning lesson at 830
den i'll b so shagged after i return home from sch
no mood n energy to study le

now betta
hehe..
a senior taught mi like dat
he also skip lec
bt he's worse dan mi la!
he skipped everything within 1 mth away from exams!!!
i dun dare skip everything la..
cos some lec damn impt
n some prof damn particular abt attendance
referring to accounting teacher esp!
haha

i love my life now
relaxed yet hav time to study.
nice

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