Saturday, December 31, 2005

today mama was discharged..
grt
cos i spent e whole night with her in e ward
was given dis super cranky make-shif bed
once i move a little, e bed will b super noisy..



in e end, din slp at all..
cos other dan e cranky bed,
e nurses r still walking ard, patrolling e area
n checking temperatures n blood pressure
super tough!!!
no wonder so few sporean nurses..



haiz..
decided to wake up at 530
cant stand it anymore
went downstairs to explore n buy teh tarik



den 720
mama wakes up
cos mz get ready for doc's checkup at 730
budden onli some small doc checking at 730
our senior consultant Dr Lim Li came onli at 8+ near 9
so, b4 she comes, i accompanied mama back to hav breakfast
haha.. so clever!!



niwae, everything's fine i think..
except dat mama is tearing
nurse said itz due to op
so e tear gland is disrupted n keeps tearing..
itz okie, except we mz take note whether any thick liquid is flowing out
cos thick liquid = liquid from e inside e eye..



tue gg for checkup
start sch le..
bt still can make it
cos i end quite early dat day..
think mz change my timetable asap
cos e prescribed timetable is damn shitty again la..
always gt lotsa empty slots for mi to wait to go for e nxt lesson...
bt when i wanna change it on 29th, i missed e timing le..
haiz



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Friday, December 30, 2005

today mama's gg for her 2nd n formal surgery..
derez no call from e eye centre to inform us
so dat means e cornea is here!!



haiz.. i realli hope e op is successful
cos i realli dun think mama can suffer another ordeal of losing her eyesight again
n i also dun think so i can go thru another round of such days
where i need to console her everyday
n she jz keeps on complaining abt her illness n her helplessness everyday..



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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

so angry with mama!
always living in her pathetic little small world..
told her not to worry for money matters
bt she jz wont listen!!! dunno wad she's thinking abt..



den e same thing happens again
told her some of e medicine she consume has diff purpose
lyl panadol is for relieving her pain n some others is for reducing e soreness of her joints



been telling her since e 1 st day she went to see doc
till today she hasnt get it into her small little brain!!!
argggg
den told mi to keep quiet
cos she wants to talk my aunt into 'subsidising' her e some of e supplements dat was said to b very gd
aunt said e supplements were founded by sb who was a nobel prize winner
n e brand of medication was in e doc's safe list..
wadeva..
mama jz wanna try
bt she gt no money
so try to shut mi up cos im disturbing her plan to get my aunt to pay for her!!!



so %&@#(*&(*&$#%$#%$#
hate my mama!!!
she made mi feel as if im reduced to a beggar
ya noe!!!
lyk we gt money to support our living lyk dat..
i noe our money is quite tight for us if her illness lasts for 1-2yrs
bt e doc says she onli needs 6 mth to recover..
n many others who had cornea transplant said e op was quite okie..
n SNEC had more dan 200 over cases in a yr for cornea transplant!!!
den wads dere to worry abt????
i mean her doc is a senior consultant
i bet she has so much experience dat wadeva time frame she said
lyk mama will recover in roughly abt 6 mths den it mz b somewhere dere ya noe..



bt mama jz won't listen!!!
itz seems lyk her brain is so saturated with all those stupid thoughts dat she created in her small little pathetic world dat she jz cant seem to get in wadeva we said
she jz cont to insist on her beliefs lyk itz bcause of her work n everything which is e real cause to her rheumatoid, not her own body
she jz keep on ranting dat her doc is not gd n dis n dat
BUT never herself, for nt paying attention to her abnormal symptoms lyk aching of her joints n legs



hate mama
for her obstinate character
for she doesnt listen to others
for she insists on her beliefs n not listen to e expertise
(i mean e docs spent so many yrs studying to get their degree, i certainly dun think mama's sec education is better dan their graduate education)



basically, i jz HATE EVERYTHING ABT MY MOTHER!!!
i vow nv to b a mother lyk her!!
never n ever!!!



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today quite fun
si came to find mi
she act travels to boon lay to find mi to go for afternoon tea!
such gd fren!



shopped ard for a while..
been gg rounds n rounds in jp
haha..



eventually, she spotted a lovely bag at 1 of e small stalls at b1
den bought it!
haha..
so fast..



niwae, e bag is nice..
funky n fun..



den she has to leave to go for e hospital
her cousin's in hospital
car accident, still in coma
cos doc fear dat if he wakes up too early, his brain might swell
n mz go for another op again..
today den start to minimise e dosage of morphin i think, dunno wad si told mi



den went back home



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Monday, December 26, 2005

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.



yupz yupz..
dats my test result!
quite fun taking such personality tests..

Sunday, December 25, 2005

dis morning mama wake up
had breakfast at e dining table tgt
so surprised dat i woke up so early today
9+ haha..
esp when itz so cooling n a gd morning to slp more



den she told mi she can slp soundly yez
even though she din take any medicine
yupz..
she gt a psychologist who gave her medicine to let her slp peacefully



cos she gt depression.. cant really slp throughout e night..
not used to it la.. cos she usually doesn't hav time to think abt things when she was working
bt now she has every min n every sec to think abt things..
lotsa things
which is redundant n it jz add on to her misery n worries



yupz yupz..
quite happi for her..
cos she finally gt her mind thinking straight..
after she met more pple who r worse dan her in e hospital..
dere was 1 woman whose both eye sight was blur n she was onli 40++
another guy also v young also gt eye prob..
yar..
din noe so many pple gt eye prob..
din noe so many pple r worse off dan us, or rather mi..



scary..
mz take care of my health man..
since im super prone to illnesses..
grandma gt breast cancer, mama gt rheumatoid arthritis
so my risk of getting either illness is super high la..
cant take little symptoms lightly..
small symptoms may lead to big illness if not treated early..



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Saturday, December 24, 2005

yez mama went for a cornea transplant..
the conea is taken from the chiller
so not fresh n not gd



so mayb 1-2 weeks l8r hav to go for another similar op
using a fresh cornea from other country
e doc will arrange for it to b shipped to here
when e fresh cornea is ready den will mama go for e 2nd surgery



mummy's auper duper upset abt it
cos e cornea might tear again cos e eye illness is due to her rheumatoid arthritis



so if her rheumatoid diease bcome worse, even after she had e cornea transplant,
e same thing will happen again



so mama kept saying she wants to die n commit suicide
ya noe.. lyk itz a waste of money n everything



dats it la..



but today okie le.. cos other pple in her ward are worse off dan her..
she's e onli 1 with renal prob
e rez r with rectum prob
some cant even eat n some cant get up n walk cos back pain..
so she seem rather ok le..
den suddenly say she wanna live for mi la..
ya noe.. lyk im so concern abt her so she mz live on..
yupz yupz...



n thanks wensi.. for being so concern abt my mama..
realli very very touched..
u noe how things r reali bad yez?
cos e doc explained abt e possibilities of e recurring eye illness dat mama may hav
n she's super depressed abt it



e worse of all is dat ive been consoling her until 2+ when i went for lunch
within those 10-15 mins dat im away, she jz grabbed a nurse n told her she wants to commit suicide n die..
i was so!!.. i dunno wad..
nothing i said seems to get into her head..
den e social worker came n talked to her n mi,
to tell us not to worry
n asked mi if i were oki n try to b patient with her n everything..



she meant dat im already being very patient with her,
bt i need to hav mental preparation dat things might get worse n i need to b even more patient with her
to listen to her n everything..
den i jz broke down..
i jz cried n explained to her sometimes itz realli my max,
esp during my exam periods..
i jz cant take it dat she can onli see short term effects
dat she's wasting money on treatment n on dis temp op



i was so frustrated when she jz cant think for e long term
dat if her concern was for money, i can always earn it back when i graduate n start working
if her concern was for her condition, i mean we've done wadeva we could
doc giv medicine, eat medicine
doc says come for appointment, go for appointment
doc says go for op, go for op
if even we've did all these n itz still no use, den FINE!
but she hasn't even go for e op n she's backing out le..
already think dat she's gg to fail even when she has done nothing..



n e worst is, ive been taking all dis alone..
papa will onli laugh it off cos he doeant noe wad to do too..
ya noe.. i mean if he's some expert in medicine den mayb he'll noe wad to do or wad doc will do
bt none of us noe.. i mean we dun hav dis kind of knowledge ma..
so hav to wait for nxt checkup n doc will explain clearer of her condition
whether her condition imroves or worsens
if it worsens, den wad should we expect..
itz lyk everything's uncertain n doc will onli say it all depends on 1self
cos everyone's condition's diff..
some may recover faster some may not



n worst is when doc told us derez no cure for rheumatoid arthritis
cos they havnt found e underlying reasons for dis illness
they can onli spot e symptoms n which area of e body will b affected e most
so right now can onli use medicine to control e illness from deteriorating



so i noe itz hard for her n itz hard for everyone..
im realli touched dat ur very concern abt mi n mama..
THANK YOU!



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Thursday, December 22, 2005

today been a very busy day
been up since 9am



went thru emails, plan my time table for sem 2
chat with frens
talked abt e spore race
cos we gg to take part in it as tertiary grp



den went to teach tuition
den now gt insomnia
jz cant get to slp
cos still gt many things to do n prepare..



n tmr mz call bookstore to check whether e textbooks used in sem 1 will still b used in sem 2 not
cos buying from frens
haiz..
too many things to do
too little time
bt luckily i cant slp now..
budden i knew i'll die tmr
unless i slp until early afternoon



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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

mama is finally gg fo cornea transplant le..
cos she gt sore eyes
n it affected her glue on her cornea




hence, e onli way out is cornea transplant
dis is e onli way dat she can see again..




doc says gt 80% chance dat she can see again without any rejection
bt if she gt sore eyes again,
den her surgery would b useless.



worried




cos her body is rather weak now
due to her illness
so she's rather susceptible to viral infections




if dis surgery doesn't work out for her,
dunno wad to do.
cos e surgery damn ex
mz get e cornea from other countries
n e shipping of e small lil tissue costs 1380!!
n dis doesn't include e follow-ups
e surgery cost
e hospital's fee if she needs to be warded




worried :(




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Friday, December 16, 2005

yez completed a stupid book abt revirgination
revirgination = 1 yr without sex
den itz lyk after 1yr, ur lyk a rebirth, a virgin again



itz abt e story of dis woman Stacy
who is near revirgination
n she seeks help from her frens, her ex, her neighbour, her boss (a woman)
to help her to avoid revirgination..



however, she was rejected by most of them
or there were some glitches lyk someone interrupting
or she doesn't lyk dat person..
i mean she's quite elegant n sexy n pretty
bt some of e guys she met were bulky n ugly n gay
yupz yupz..



e ending was e bez..
on e morning dat she's onli a couple of hours to revirgination,
she found all of them at her door
cos they realli lyk her n cant forget her..



n they started to confess their love for her
n Stacy rejected them 1 by 1
until onli 2 were left, her bez fren Charlie n her neighbour, Oliver
den she made e choice..



Oliver was told to go to her bedroom
n she told Charlie dat they're still bez frens..
den she made out with Oliver..



funny ending..
bt i always thought she would choose Charlie, her bez fren
bt e author explain dat she wanted surprises
cos Charlie practically know everything abt her.. so there were no surprises anymore..
n so she chose Oliver.



Nice story..
bt ridiculous..
i mean wads so biggadeal not having no sex for a yr?
i bet we dun hav sex for lyk 10+ yrs b4 we gave our virginity away..
wads wrong with onli a yr??
dotz..



n i think we hav more meaningful things to do other dan having sex..
having gd sex is more of an advantage
it doesn't make up e sole meaning of life..
yupz yupz..



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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

been rather bored nowadays..
always traveling
from east to north
north to west
east to west
west to east..



haha..
dunno y..
i seem to lyk travelling on e road..
weird though~



whoeva loves travelling on e road can join mi as well!!!
those who can sit on train for 1h++
n bus for 2h++
r most welcomed!!



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Thursday, December 08, 2005

yez came back to kampung boon lay early in the morning
cos mama's right eye was damn bloody n swollen



den went to SNEC for checkup..
bt our doc is away for hols..
den they gt us another doc



we went dere early la..
den wait until lyk hell
cos e place damn cold..
e clinic dat we went is already damn cold la..
bt e refractive surgery centre is even worse..
dunno how pple can survive inside for e whole day..



finally, e doc thinks mama is onli sore eyes
cos no hole on the cornea..
jz very bloody n swollen..
gave her 2 bottles of eye drops
1 is antibiotic, e other is jz to wet e eyes..
yupz..



waited from 1+ to ard 5 lyk dat..
bloody cold..
for those who havnt experience e coldness of winter,
can try gg dere..
haha..
brrr...



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Tuesday, December 06, 2005

today spent tthe whole day at home
watching tv
haha..
quite relaxing
n today my body quite gd!
nv realli sneeze dat much le..
hurray! ~



dis morning at 840, si flew off to australia le..
tld her to tell mi the lane dat she's lining up for n which terminal bt she nv reply
cos she said itz too early for mi..
haiz..



wanted to send her off budden no idea where to send her..
niwae, so gd dat she's in australia now..
can enjoy herself..



budden wherever i go,
gt tv can le..
n nice shows!!
haha..
wad an easily contented gal i am..
woahaha..



gt a reply from an employer..
hav to go down to toa payoh at 11am tmr..
budden nt sure if they still wan mi
cos starting sch on 2nd jan
dat means can onli work until 31/12
cos 1/1 is public hols



replied to e boss to confirm
n know wad exactly is e scope of e job dat im applying for..
if nt dunno anything den go dere for interview
waste time..



luckily e boss seem quite okie..
i think..
cos i msg him to giv mi his add..
e msg he replied seem quite friendly..
hope he'll b a gd boss!!
or mayb itz a she



hope e boss can reply mi soon
so i can plan my time ahead..
toa payoh le..
if i take 8 , i need to leave hse at least 1hr b4..
den hav to wash up n everything..
gotta plan carefully..
nt gd to b late on my interview..
haha..



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Monday, December 05, 2005

today is my 3rd lesson with samantha
quite okie
jz dat i prepared way too much qn..



n today's lesson is with e least no. of qn lorz
dunno wad to do with e other lessons..
mayb should set less qn..



den i told her to do e other qns as hw lorz..
wad to do..
budden nxt lesson is on wed
dunno whether she gt e time to do it not..



haiz..
wanna b a gd teacher bt set e target too high le..
bleah~



nxt lesson touching on functions..
she very weak at modulus graphs
n sketching
no idea wad these things r at all!!!



super duper worrying..
mz teach her e basics man!!
mz focus on sketching!!!



if nt functions n quadratic eqn n many more
all these need sketching n rough idea of wad e curve looks lyk
if she cant get it right,
her future will b even worse!
cos more diff in cmath!!



realli hope can help her to my bez..



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Sunday, December 04, 2005

today damn sick la
yez drank tea at 2+
in e end cant slp throughout e night



cos always sneezing ma..
now weather turn so cold
so, need to drink hot drinks..



in e end, i look at e sky as it lightens n becomes bright
quite beautiful
esp as e sun rises..



den went to mkt to buy breakfast
for my bro n sis
den gt even sicker!!



been sneezing e whole day
den slept from 7+am to 7+pm
woke up den start to do hse work le..
vacummed n mopped the floor le..
den watch star awards...
damn nice
esp their speeches
very funny
i like da bing!
super funnny sia..



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Saturday, December 03, 2005

today was great fun..
went to town wih yan n shi
they're gg to LA soon!!!
lucky them!



went shoppin for a while..
den settled at bakerzin @ paragon
damn nice la!
ate choc cakes n had vanilla latte
super filling though e cake looks damn small la!



sat there n chat abt sch life
n our sailing days
lotsa memories
esp during e races..
gt lotsa funny things happen



lyk us arguing with vj n rj abt who is e champion for e team racing
cos rj beat vj
we beat rj
den vj beat us



haha...
so confusing!
budden in e end, we emerged as e champion
cos both of them gt a tie with sa
bt we beat sa
so we win!!!
hehe..



den dere was 1 race where i was 1st
dunno y also..
i onli realise it when i was near e buoy!!
n mabel (vj, e bez sailor who represents spore in many many races) was behind mi
ALL OF A SUDDEN
haha..
den after dat i was lost le..
cos nv been 1st
always gt e pros to follow..
den i was 1st dat time
so no one to follow



sad!
kept looking back for yan
bt she was too far behind!!
no one to turn to
dunno where to go..
den jz any how sail
den took e wrong course
cos straight routes faster dan bent routes..



i always go on a bent route cos always behind
den onli bent route will ensure my wind is nt covered
budden dat time 1st
no one will b covering my wind
stupid mi
shld hav gone straight..



budden eventually, i emerged as e 3rd
even my coach wee lee (i always call him free willy) was shocked!
cos b4 dat race he gave mi advises
lyk e wind direction n e current
i jz nod my head as he said it
bt when he asked mi whether i noe wad to do in dis condition
i jz shook my head..
den everybody on e boat laughed at mi...
so paiseh..



yupz yupz..
dat was jz 1 particular joke i made in my sailing days
still gt other things too..
hehe..



after dat, went to kino
shi n yan bought comics worth 55 bucks la!
damn ex
den went shopping ard taka


went to visit e kids road show at B2
gt lotsa toys!
elmo, tigger, pooh, power rangers (now they call it gransazers)
barney, spiderman, cars, balloons
so many kiddish things



had a great laugh n all
finally settled at e seats outside taka
they began reading their comics n i began taking photos using yan's phone
she changed her phone to samsung dunno wad
gt nice nice borders
n many diff modes
nice!



den i went home 1st
cos mz buy dinner..
realli had a great fun!!
nxt time mz go out again!!!



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Friday, December 02, 2005

today damn tiring..
early in the morning wake up
nt dat early too la!
haha..
11am lyk dat..



den 12pm started off for sgh le
mama has to go for blood test
mz test whether e medicine she took has any effects on her liver n everything not..



den went to eat lunch



after dat, went to wait to c doc
doc says everything's okie
den giv medicine
collect medicine den hav to wait again



after dat, itz grandma's turn
wait damn long for her no. to b called.
cos her appointment was at 4.10pm
super long



meimei turned up
told her she doesnt need to come le..
budden she still come
accompanied with us for 1+hr
finally at 5+, 6 grandma's no. was called
den meimei left



doc checked grandma's body
damn fast la
den say need to go for mamogram nxt time when she come
which is 3 mth l8r



den paid e money..
den wait again, for taxi



luckily, gt a cabbie gg jurong
so we left earlier dan expected
reached home at ard 630pm



no time to cook..
so grandma plan to jz cook rice
n buy dishes from coffeeshop or sth..



haiz.. wad a day..
plain waiting..



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Thursday, December 01, 2005

today went to bugis with si
quite happi for her la
she seems as if her exam was a breeze
though she complained dat e qns were challenging
yet do-able for her la!



her exam's over tmr..
so fast! :)
hmmm...
chat quite a bit with her



talked abt her relastionships with teachers, juniors n her mummy...
she'z quite bothered abt where her r-ships with them will lead to..



haha..
i also dunno wad to say..
except to giv her encouragements
lyk tell her to tell e others, "i can't stop people from liking mi! im jz too charming!"
haha..
lousy encouragements though..
nt realli a help to her.. :(



budden, ive nv experience dis kinda thing b4
i mean..
not realli close to any teachers dat they take mi for a pet..



mz reflect!!
hehe.. :)



niwae, jz wanna wish her gd luck for her exams
oh!
SMU starting sch e same day as us
2nd jan 2006!
woah..
they started lyk 1 mth after us
budden new term starting e same day as us
NUS 1 wk l8r i think..
sad for si n esther..
haha..



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yez was my 1st lesson with samantha..
quite gd
cos she's very smart n quick



jz dat she has diff understanding math lang
cos there's a certain way to describe a math qn
i think itz her teacher nv teach properly..



asked her to write set notation
dunno wads dat..
bt when i pointed out wad set notation looks lyk
den she'll go "oh..."



den description of sets quite poor too..
dunno 'description' means in words!!!



den nt sure abt brackets too..
lyk 2x(4x+1) to the power of (y+2)
she's nt sure whether e power (y+2) is for (4x+1) or 2x or both..



basically, calculations nt much prob
onli careless mistakes
lyk writing x-coordinate as y-coord n vice versa..



so lesson quite fast..
1 lesson go thru 3 topics
sets, log, simultaneous eqn



i think too fast le..
budden i need to devote more time on harder qn
lyk remainder theorem
function
binomial theorem



F(x) is esp diff for her
she cant sketch e graph of log, ln,
n many more
which is damn impt in F(x)s
haiz..



hmmm...
i think nxt lesson will focus on her F(x) baz..



she jz told si dat im a gd teacher..
cos no homework!
haha..
mayb itz time for mi to giv homework!!!
hehe...



budden, don't think i need to giv homework baz..
cos i plan my lesson well..



still gt 8 lessons with her..
still hav 7-8 topics..
so should hav enough time to finish e syllabus..



no hw = mz focus on e characteristics of e qn
lyk wad kind of qn dat they'll come out with..
esp those with applications..



looking forward to nxt lesson!!



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