Thursday, January 11, 2007
damn sad abt yest's training.
super chui can! 12 rounds ard the track!
1st 3 rounds warming up, den sprint on alternate rounds.
my shoes chui already, so had to borrow from my aunt
addidas sia. but the shoelaces damn idiotic.
its those glossy glossy kind, not realli rough
so it keeps dropping and i have to keep re-tying it.
so damn hard to retie them, esp when my whole body is shaking
with my heart pounding so hard, and panting
anyway, ah hee had to cut short the cycle
we started the pattern of 2 rounds jog, 1 round sprint after 7th or 8th round
which i cant rem.
den i got better and i slowly catch up
by the time i got to the front, as in become the pacer, it was already the 2nd last round.
the last round was a sprint. cant sprint for the whole 400m man.
but i got quicken my pace a bit.
ran with my senior, suat wei.
she damn nice. keep encouraging me.
for the last 50m, we even hold hand and sprint all the way to the finishing line
nice feeling.
i think its the 6th round when the joint in my left shoulder started to hurt.
ah hee says its bcos i din relax my shoulder enough.
which i think is true cos the last few rounds, the pain was gone
probably cos i was relying on my body's momentum to run, whereby i started to swing my arms more to reming my legs to keep up with the rythm of my arms.
next time must swing more!
and must remind my body to follow the rythm of the swinging of my arms.
anyway, today's the last day of sch for this week.
attended my last seminar just now.
Advance Corporate Finance
sth like dat, which i cant rem
super boring and dry, when the doc was going thru the course outline
after that it got better, cos we went through the proper lesson
and started solving problem sums, whereby participation is encouraged
damn lucky. saw tung anh and neri in my finance class just now.
we din arrange to choose this module, but we ended up in the same class
so qiao3!
unlike kailing n me. we always try to choose the same class tgt
but onli a few times were successful.
cos i was proceeding with my minor in psy
so sometimes the timings clash
wadeva. at least i noe most of classmates.
except for my comm class. there's onli pei zhen (from cedar n mj 1st 3 mth)
dats all.
transferred to kailing's class today le. yippee!
nice to see so many familiar faces again!
dis fri going out with susanna, shuan & xin lei
they're my colleagues in sgh
nice pple
having dinner at a jap restaurant in great world. dun realli noe how to go dere
onli noe there's a shuttle bus at the mrt exit near capitol.
sat training, and after training going to seol garden
at amk!!! super far la.
4o gathering. we had it annually
but last yr din have, kind of like postponed to the beginning of this yr
after that have to go for yy's bdae party @ costa sands resort
busy busy
sunday off!
ah hee is super nice! he decided to let us off for sunday
but starting for next week, we cant have any more reasons to slack le
thurs night rowing is starting,
as well as sat & sun rowing.
ganbatte! i can do it!
time will fly past without you noticing it.
haha.
-end-
I love my world:D
5:54 PM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
been really upset with my runs.never seem to catch up.previously i tot i can complete the 5k run to the 2nd bridge lebut it was all false hopes.cos during the times when i managed to complete the runs, i was the pacer.din realise i was actually slowing down the whole team when im in the leadand i tot i actually improved a lot, so much so that i can catch up with the rest.realli feel like crying.den huiqi, my ex-cap, was behind me.she kept saying negative comments to me.like 'you're slowing down the whole right side' and stuff like dat.super demoralising and miserable. i teared when i couldnt do it.had to lag behind, and she ran in front of me, giving up on me.dunno y i just cant seem to keep up with the rest.they're super fast, yet most of them can stay tgt, except me.i know i've improved, but i still have not reached their standards.it makes me feel that im not improving at all.damn sad.but it's really heart warmingwhen some of my teammates found out that i was very sad after that run.they msged me to ask me not to feel sad n things like that.one of them even wrote me an email on that sat nightbut i din manage to read my mails until just now.she shared with me how she has endured and improved until the standard she had now.was reali touched.actually after the run, my seniors came to talk to me abt how to improve on my next run and things like dat.was realli touched, but at the same time felt like i was a baby, making everyone to be worried abt me.the next morning, sun, i met ah hee, my coach on the train to kallang.was surprised when i see him there, on the platformhe came to talk to measked me abt my results, ask how's the training.gave suggestions abt how to improve my land fitness and a little of his experience.haha. it was hilarious, cos he was encouraging me, in a not so serious tonebut i just couldnt help tearing, plus its on the train. super diu1 lian3 k.even now im tearing. dunno y. weird.today ah hee ran with us. its so obvious that he was dere to support me.to encourage me for the run.really feel lousy of myself. like a cry baby, cant seem to grow upand be strong, both physically and mentally.i realli sucks.i know im not panting, but my mind just couldnt control my bodyto let it go faster, or even at a constant speed.my legs just keep moving slower and slower, my steps are just narrower and narrower.but still, after all the encouragement, ive decided to run 7x a wk.i know its crazy, but i realli dun want to be a loser who just quits db, after all the efforts i've put in.jia yous! (for myself)-end-
I love my world:D
4:22 PM
