Thursday, March 29, 2007
very sad...yesterday went ost with soo shuen, tay chuan, cheryl and lixiansuper chuiran hall 16 + peaceful road (behind nanyang executive)at first was ok, though i find it a bit fastbit after we cross the road to the nanyang executive,i dieded le...the slope at hall 11 totally sucked away all my energyhaha.no kidding. need a lot of fart-leg trainingsdecided that i shld go training on fri evening, sat & sun morningshld focus on my running and no more...think my rowing techniques can come latercos my most disturbing prob is my stamina right nowit's more impt right now...gotta train hard man!!!read an email from adele, supoosedly is one of my seniors who have graduatedshe mentioned that during a race, someone sitting in front of her fell from her seat at the charging partdat was so similar from my experience in my MR500 race!except that i din fell from my seatthe girl who fell was Pang, my ex-captainshe explained that she was trying to kick her body up, but slipped and fellcried a lot. haha.but teammates sitting behind her told her, "it's ok. i rowed doubly hard for you."so koo!!!that's wad we call the 'Phoenix" spirit (our team is called Phoenix)haven't really experience this kind of feeling yetmayb i feel that i do not have the qualifications to be considered their teammatebut i'll train doubly hard!!! i promise!i felt that my body is getting into conditionits just my way of breathing, which exhaust me a lotalways panting hardly, cant breathe, esp when we do sprintsi know my legs are not tired, yet i can't push any furtherpartly due to my mentalitymy mental strength is extremely weakhow to change my mind???get a new brain???i know i shld tell myself that i can, dont give upbut strangely, once i heard pple telling that "you can do it"there's an inner voice that tells me "i cant do it"WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY MIND???if i still dont change my mentality, i'll be eliminated soongotta changeCHANGE CHANGE CHANGE-end-
I love my world:D
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